The Departure

This Birdy definitely has unique voice. I heard this songs long time ago but I didn't bother to even Google.



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It's the first day of Raya!
Hello Vacations!
Firstly, today doesn't feel like a Thursday for me.
It feels like a Saturday.
Just that the Saturday is a very very long Saturday and so you can have a prolong-ed weekend.
And then Sunday and then hello bluish Monday (I feel like writing mundane actually). =P



I spent the previous night having with Mr. E's colleagues.
Ended up in the K-room and then as usual, I yell.
Well, I only managed to yell like 40% for God's sake.
I was afraid to scare the hell out of the folks.

The only thing that was on my mind that time was, I wish I could be with my sampat gang.
Having our Gaga concert of our own.
Singing songs like Born This Way, Zombie, A Moment Like This to oldies like Yesterday Once More.
The Jackie Cheung, Andy Lau, Stefanie Sun and Lady Gaga's concert.
Just the thought of it can make me drools. *yums*

Where else can I find sampat people like that?
I miss you utarians!



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The first getaway with the girls in less than 12 hours.
I'm worried actually.
Girls with emotions on board = Girls on fire.
I can't imagine what's gonna happen.
Out of my way to control.
I just hope that things gonna turn out to be fine.
I just want to have a happy memorable trip.


No matter what, I'm meeting WeiHao KorKor and WanChin! Yay! =D


I want a happy trip like this:

Nothing else more than just me, Mr. E, my Kipling monkey and strawberries. 

Redness! Happiness! Laughter! =D 

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Looking at pictures of others that they manage to travel all around the world makes me jealous at times. 

I don't blame anyone that I'm not able to do that now.

It's just plain jealous. 

I do appreciate very much that I'm getting much more than some people. 

So much more that I couldn't ask for more anymore. 

But I promise myself that I'm gonna give myself and my family much more. 

No hanky panky. I'll try my best. 

I'm giving myself 1-2 years time to hanky panky to take my own sweet time and then nothing else and just slack. 

But, I do have a vision that the 1-2 years is somehow gonna extend. 

Plain Rachel Ngiam. 

Super in love with pushing things to its limits. 

Come on, you only live once! 

WAIT! You don't live once! You live everyday! You only die once! 

HAHAHHAHA!

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Never stop appreciating =)

Wish me luck and that I have a fruitful wondrous trip kay? =D

I hope that you will have a pleasant holiday as well! =)

:: regards ::

Rae

PS: I'm gonna miss you Mr. E =*

The Thrill

Can you feel my love?



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Why Malaysia doesn't have these kinds of mini concerts whereby we can be close to the artists?

Can someone actually tell me why I already spent 3k for the month ah?
I'm so effin broke man..! =.="


Such a bless that there's only 3 working days for the week!
And gladly, today is the last working day of the week already! Teehee! =D


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A strong, healthy relationship can be one of the best supports in your life. Good relationships improve all aspects of your life... strengthening your health, body, soul and your connections with others.

But, a relationship that isn't working can be a tremendous drain as well.
Relationship is another type of investment in life..
The more you put in, the more you can get back.
So, please do play your part well.
You might just get a healthy fruitful future! =P


This is what I read from a random article. I find it quite reasonable thou!
There you go!



What makes a healthy relationship?

• Staying involved with each other. Some relationships get stuck in peaceful coexistence, but without truly relating to each other and working together. While it may seem stable on the surface, lack of involvement and communication increases distance. When you need to talk about something important, the connection and understanding may no longer be there.
• Getting through conflict. Some couples talk things out quietly, while others may raise their voices and passionately disagree. The key in a strong relationship, though, is not to be fearful of conflict. You need to be safe to express things that bother you without fear of retaliation, and be able to resolve conflict without humiliation, degradation or insisting on being right. 
• Keeping outside relationships and interests alive. No one person can meet all of our needs, and expecting too much from someone can put a lot of unhealthy pressure on a relationship. Having friends and outside interests not only strengthens your social network, but brings new insights and stimulation to the relationship, too.
• Communicating. Honest, direct communication is a key part of any relationship. When both people feel comfortable expressing their needs, fears, and desires, trust and bonds are strengthened. Nonverbal cues—body language like eye contact, leaning forward or away, or touching someone’s arm—are critical to communication.

Okay. I practically kopi pasta everything! =P


Other than these, you have got to...

1. Keep physical intimacy alive.
2. Spend quality time together.
3. Never stop communicating.
4. Give and take.
5. Expects ups and downs.



Seeing the first one makes me go cuckoo actually.
I remember when the ex told me that he was in love with another girl, he refused to even touch me.
That feels pretty awful and yes, that feeling haunt me till recent days.


Seriously, the different sexes do see things differently.


I am pretty sensitive.
How?
How to get over it?

3 hours to liberty!!! 

In fact, less than that. 

Around 1 hour to liberty! Deducting the super slow paced lunch. 

Hmmm. Basically that's it! 

Hoola!!! 

Enjoy your weekend guys! 

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Mr. E asked if I wanna follow him goes back to his hometown last night. 

Don't know why, I took it as a joke. 

He was practically joking I guess. He joked about it before. 

Well, my perceptions. 

Time and tides wait for no man. 

But well, things might not happen now but eventually it will. 

Mr. E, spend some precious moments with your parents and I spend the days young with my girls okay? 

I do hope that there will not be any arguments this time around.. 

Just enjoy what you are doing at that particular moments.

We can't always have the best of both worlds. 

C'est La Vie.

:: Regards ::

Rae

PS: Girls just wanna have fun! 

The Moment

Adele has always been my favourite.
I love her songs.
She is even the one who tied the knot between me and Mr. E I would say.
I do think that songs always tie up the knots between 2 people.
I was sharing songs to Mr. E when we were friends.
There were quite a number of songs being exchanged.
But I remember "The One & Only" pretty well.
Not many people listen to Adele thou.


Besides Adele?
Taylor Swift! =PP



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Many things have happened previously.
I'm glad to say that things have finally receded to certain extends that I could breathe freely.
Without the need to gasp for fresh air.
Like a desperado..

For you I would cross every river.
I would sail every sea.
I would climb every mountain.
To be right where you are.
To be right beside you. 

Speaking of religion, do you think that a couple with different religious can get together?
For me, yes it will.
Provided that both are not keen onto influencing each other to embrace the particular religion.
Me? I'm a super free thinker.
I'm open up to any religion.
For me is that, every religion has their own beliefs.
It depends on which suits you the most and which is comfortable/suitable for you.

I'm not super banana-fied.
I'm not super bhuddist-mistic as well.
I'm good at nowhere.
Nothing.
YET, I'm glad to be just me.


It comforts me pretty well when a friend knows what that I'm lacking of or to say that what I'm not good at.
I do enjoy pretty much when some people just get lazy of explaining to me cause they know that I wouldn't understand even if they explain.
HAHAHA.
I seriously hate to use my brain.
I love to leave it at home letting it rot.
And then you get many many mushy mushrooms!


Talking about mushy mushy.
It reminds me of the Mossy Forest when I went to Cameron during my birthday.
It is commonly known as Gunung Brinchang.
First time going up to that high elevated area.
Just the 2 of us.
And the small windy roads.


Still I remember precisely what we said when we were on the way up.
Will we get robbed?
This is such a remote area.
What if there are assassins coming after us?
Alright. I added the last sentence in.
Cheers people! =D


After we went there only I got to know that the peak, is actually the highest peak in the peninsular Malaysia.
Fu-seh, proud sial.
I actually made it to the peak OKAY!
Not by foot la of course.
Thanks to the "Power to Surprise" =D




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Have you supported our local production?

I did! 

I've done my part. 

I don't really like the movie thou.

I watched it for the sake that Namewee didn't really have much time to promote for his movie and stuffs.

That's why I decided to watch it.

My kind of moral support so that the spirits of wanting to contribute to the society never dies! =D

I'm broke.

I'm so broke.

Just the thought that I would have to spend the weekend in Singapore makes me go haywire.

Singapore Dollar = Pain in the Arse.

Dang! 

When I went to Australia, the currency was at its highest peak.

When I wanna go Singapore this time around, its at the highest peak as well.

Dafuq? 

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My Mr. E! 

Aiyo, where to find so cute ones?!

Glad that I finally brought him to Setia Alam Night Market last Saturday! =)

Glad that he is one such MPK so that I can eat all the food that I like! 

Assam Laksa! =D

One thing that Mr. E can comforts me pretty well is that, he will say that "I finish for you" whenever I couldn't finish my food.

This comforts me pretty well I do not know why. 

But!!

This Mr. E likes to play wrestling so much I don't know why.

Now I have bruises all over my body! Damn! =.="

But still, I don't wanna learn Muay Thai to show him IN THE FACE! 

Plainly because I'm a super good person!! =P

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Time flies so quickly! 

2 more days to Singapore.

2 more weeks to meeting my allies in uni! 

3 more weeks to my convo! 

Damn I'm super duper broke! 

Alright.

Time's up for the day! 

Toodles! =D

:: regards ::

RAe

PS: Girls just wanna have fun! =) 

PSS: Never stop chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere. Just do what you want, what you feel like doing. Time and tide wait for no man.

PSSS: My baby Mousy, you're always on my mind =)

For The First Time

The first day of August!
I did something outrageous today!
Hahaha. Not really outrageous thou.
It's just that I actually drove all the UTP in Tronoh and then back to Klang.

I FEEL SO AMAZING!
But seriously,  I'm effin tired....
I just want to have someone to talk to.
To share the day.
Too bad I couldn't find one.
There are people that are available but I don't feel like seeing. Duh....
I messaged Mr. Eddie actually. Don't know why he would cross my mind... someone with the same range of mindset I guess?


I have a problem.
I have always have an expectation towards something.
But still I opt for miracles to happen that things don't always grow according to my expectations.
Then I always get disappointed whenever my expectations turn out to be fact.
How to comfort myself when I don't even want to?


Driving on the highway today flashed back some memories. The talking, driving, singing moments in the previous years.
Especially when you're listening to songs that ordinary people hardly listen to..
I always think that I'm odd and that luckily I found another odd person that I can share things with.
But well, those were histories.
You just have to accept the fact that you can never have the best of both worlds as the rhyme goes.


On the bended knees...


No doubt that the ex was a super bad person.
But I really appreciate that he really treated me well in the early years.
He knew that I didn't really get to travel around that's why he brought me to many places to open up my eyes.
During the journey when I was talking to my colleague about places, I realized that I have actually been to quite an amount of places..


I don't know whether it's right for me to have flashed back moments.
But things or memories do come into my mind..
Can someone really forget about the moments spent with someone who was once so close to you?
No flashing moments at all?
Yes? No?



想你的夜.. 多希望你能在我身边....
顶你的肺...


Your....
1. Dream
2. Career
3. Friends
4. Family
5. Partner


How would you arrange them in order? ?
Which comes first and which comes last?




:: regards ::



Rae



Ps: mum said don't argue la.. must be happy happy everyday mah...

The Dream

Hello there! I'm now officially an adult.
The 23rd. The age whereby I have graduated from uni.
The age I start working, officially.
Its already the second month of work.
All I can say is, Time Flies.


Looking back at the first month I was working, I was still job-street-ing to search for a job that I would like.
Cause I was seriously having the thought that this job is not for me.
This is not what I want.
I was only trying to pass time in the office and get myself fed at the same time.
What a selfish-foolish thought.
It's another 4 more months upon the confirmation of my position now.
This job, is it within my ability of handling stuffs?
I'm trying.
Really trying hard.


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I had a meaningful birthday for remembrance this year.
As what Mr. E said, it was my first birthday celebration together with him.
He wanted to make it profound.
I was so tired and sleepy on the 27th and I went to bed around 10 ish I think.
He was already so tired but still he put alarm to wake up and wish me.
It was very thoughtful and I really appreciate it much, but I was really really tired and I practically slept-walking. =.="
Yes he was very sweet and no, he did not really planned everything to give me surprise and all.
He said before he's not good at surprise.
It's okay =)


Sadly, things didn't have a complete beautiful full stop.
Some incident happened. Mr. E left his precious necklace in the hotel.
I was not very concern at first until then I was told that it was given by his mom.
The first thing that came into my mind was that, Oh shyt. I'm being imprecated.
For that everyone knows that his parents dislike me and then what now?
I made him lost his stuff that was given by his mom.
For God knows how much I was to cry and that we are like not meant to be together?
I felt so bad.
So bad that I couldn't really brain at all.


God knows how bad I am at talking. And yet, shyt happens. =(
IT was my day and it was SUPPOSED to end with a great smile!
Yeah, I am very good at asking why. I like to think WHY and then I put myself into a bad mood.
Typically Leo's. =.="
How was I supposed to feel/think Okay? =|


Fyi, things ended badly that night even though I was very glad that I manage to bring my family to Sumi-Ka for an awesomely pricey dinner. Damage badly in the pocket.
The bill came up to RM 400.
Ahhh well, expected..


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Things are not so smooth between me and Mr. E recently.
Or shall I say, things are never smooth between us both.
Ever since the beginning.
Why?
Can I just disappear from all these?
Can I just escape?

Yes I wanted to rant so badly that I don't know how.
It's very sad to see my family being bothered by my problems.
I do not want to talk about all the stuffs I have disagreements with Mr. E.
But they like to ask and they wanted to know and then I get frustrated that I just want to hide in my own room not seeing anyone.
I feel bad. So bad that I wanted to whack myself so badly.
I'm such a bad person that I bothered the people who loves me so well.
How could I?


I swear to God that if the relationship doesn't work out this time around, I never want to get into another relationship anymore.
I call DellynnLim the Kuen almost everytime I have arguments with Mr. E.
She told me that she's now very afraid to see me calling her already.
Cause it means that I will mostly crying over the phone but the fact that she can't be here with me.
Rachel Ngiam. Feel guilty shall you!


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Did I get polluted so badly that my thinking about "love" isn't that lovely anymore?
The thought of being selfless.
The thought of being caring.
The thought of being thoughtful.
The thought of being sweet.
The thought of being concerned about the relationship.
Selfless...
Where?


I.am.CUCKOO-ED!!!
I.really.need.to.rant.
I.need.to.be.sanitized.
Iambeingsuffocated. Ineedfreshness.
God of purity, please do come to me..



I need to quit blogging. Kthxbye!





Sunflower kisses - please come back to me! Desperately need you! =|



:: regards ::




Rae



Ps: I want the dream, the childhood, the fairytale kind of dream to come back to me!

The Leo Month!

Hello peeps!


It's the 25th of July and its Thursday!
Last day of work for the week! Just how amazing is that? =DD


I'm so thrilled.
I'm starting to get closer with people at work.
Hmmm. I think I'll stay here till the next opportunity comes by.
I don't really wanna find for new jobs.
I just feel like staying put over here for another couple of months! =D


I don't really know what I want actually.
So... YEAH!



25th July - Happy birthday MR. Tan Balan.
Forever the dude. Thank you very much for being with me all the time ever since in high school. =)



Hmmmm. Let's see what's for the weekend?
Tonight - Buka Puasa Dinner with colleagues in Subang.
Tomorrow morning to Sunday - Cameron Highland! How happy!! =D
Sunday night - Yours Truly Birthday Celebration in Sumi-Ka with family! =DD


Hoola! I'm totally occupied for the weekend!
I definitely love to be occupied! =*


Oh ya! I received a super surpise kind of surprise from a lovely girl last night!
It's a very cute tube-dress, well it's not really a dress thou. Hmmm.
I went home and get into my room and I saw a pressie lying there on my bed!

How lovely! =D


And of course, I thank Er Jie for celebrating my birthday with me 2 days ago in TGIF!
I will never forget her "innocent" look acting not knowing anything, about the staffs there bringing me a birthday cake!
NEVER EVER!
I'LL NEVER FORGET!




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Basically, not much updates about my days these days.
Erm, I'm now trying to do some quotations.
It's a pain in the arse.
Seriously.
You're gonna see me wearing an inch thick of glasses soon I guess.
So korlian.


Talking about in-laws the other days.
Pain in the arse.


No doubt that we as girlfriends would definitely try so effin hard to portrait the best that we could.
Is it our problems or do the elderly's just want even more from us?
It seems to be like we never do enough.
We could have done better.
Really? Seriously?



Well, no worries for me.
I haven't met the parents yet. I think it'll be better if that moment comes later... like how much later?
Let's see how much further can things be dragged then. =P



One thing to be sad about is that, the parents don't really like me I think.
That's why things have been delayed. Or is it that Mr. E doesn't want me to meet the parents that's why? =O
Well, it doesn't matter thou =P



The parents like you, give you this that, you'll have problem.
The parents don't like you, it's a problem also.
HOW?!
=.="




Ignore that while I'm still able to! Teehee!!! =P




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July is a Good Good month! As usual!
I love my birthday month!


Thank you Lord for sending me so many beautiful people.
A year older = A year wiser.
I am thankful for all that I am having now.
Xie xie! =D




Have a great weekend ahead people! Lots of Love! =*






:: regards ::




Rae






Ps: I miss Cameron Highland! =)

22/07/2013

Today marks the birthday of a Secondary School friend =)


Dear TeeChinLong,

Happy birthday.
Despite the fact that you're kinda ill, but your spirit is still strong.
So strong that I would have to learn more from you.
And I salute your ability, both physically and mentally.
Kudos my friend! =)




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Well, I had a pretty relaxing weekend.
How about you?


Being able to settle all the pending stuffs make me thrill =D
Again, I enjoyed my Sunday morning working with beautiful people.
A lot more for me to learn and absorb.
Life? Couldn't be better. I'm surrounded by beautiful people who loves me so much.
I'm truly blessed.



Hmmm. I made Mr. E act cute and then I video recorded.
He is so cute I'm gonna die!! *AgnesSpirits*


I remember very well what he said to me.
Mr. E said Agnes came into his dream and taught him banana-fied him to be so cute!
Aaaawwww...!!

I really love this picture. 

How lovely. 

My colleague in the Pharmacy complimented Mr. E. 

Sangat handsome.

Hidung condong.

Aiyoh! Mr. E literally went flying that he forgot to zip up his pants!!! HAHAHAHAH

I'm so banana-fied!! 

Can't wait for Cameron Highland trip this weekend. 

Will I get nostalgic? 

Let's see...

What I think?

It'll be no. Those memories are meant to be only memories. 

No doubt that I couldn't really get over the ex previously. 

But for now, I practically take him invisible. I erased this person from my life already. 

Those will be memories. And only memories =) 

His girlfriend so funny that I don't know how should I react to her funny moves. 

What do you expect? 

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There must be a reason why I didn't make it to Top40 in MUMO.

For good or bad, there must be a reason!

There must be a reason why I left that "section" "empty".

God has a better plan for me perhaps? =)

Have a great week ahead! I'm so thrilled!! =D

:: regards ::

RAe

PS: My birthday trip this weekend! Thank you for everything Mr. E =D