The Try-out

Every songs by Colbie Caillat are reminders...



The wedding dress

The whole world is getting married.

AHA! 

The first thing that pop out in my mind: SO EARLY?! ?

Nah, it's too mainstream. =P 

Some people can really spend over few hundred K's just to get married.

From the wedding dresses to the shoes. 

Then pre-weddings in overseas.

Then? 

Garden ROM.. Actual day.. Wedding dinner.. 

The photography.. videography.. 

Not to miss, the wedding ring? and the proposal ring? 

Aren't they supposed to be the same? 

Of course, the honeymoon, just before the honeymoon, the proposal! 

Some people don't even have the chance to fill up the stomach, 3 times a day. 

Worst still, some people are diagnosed with some diseases, causing difficulty to enjoy life, even worst, don't even have the ability to take care of themselves.

Could you simply understand how they feel? 

They tried so hard to be normal person... 

To eat normally and especially not to be dependent. 

Do they even have the option? 

It's so unfair... 

I know, you're definitely gonna mumble that yet, I go for holidays. 

The last trip was... 

Philippines in April. 

Eh no, Sabah.. But that wasn't overseas! 

Counting down to 2months from now!! 

I need A SUPER LONG BREAK.

Yeah. I definitely miss Aussie much.. 

Honestly, I am figuring if I could make it happen to migrate to Aussie. 

Probably stay with Nick when he has a house there. 

Then I could just be a parasite there? Hehehe.

Such a dreamer. 

I just wanna live I'm living. 

How would you define your life? 

Are you living when you're still breathing? 

What do you want in life? 

What would you want to achieve so that when you look back in your past, 

you would say: I can't believe I did that! Instead of, I wish I did that...! 

I'm still living in my comfort zone. 

Being able to stay at home for such a long time ever since I start working is splendid.

It's bless. 

Time to seek out for MORE in life.. 

Are you literally living?

:: regards ::

Rae

PS: 60 days to liberty! =D 

The Path

It's just another night
And I'm staring at the moon.
I saw a shooting star, and thought of you...





Could you see the way our horizons meet?
Be it the people around you, or the things/everything that are happening.
Are you enlighten that you should be appreciating the people and stuffs around you before everything is too late?


Do you think that, somehow rather, you deserve better?
Now, who doesn't want to have or own more things, better things in life?
Who doesn't want to be a Billionaire?




Can you see her fear?

If only being healthy is an option, who doesn't wanna be? 

Who would want to carry the oxygen tank whenever they go? 

Who would wanna be fighting with diseases when they could fight to have better livings? 

Perhaps, leaving to another planet together? 

There are too many uncertainties in life that would make you struggle. 

The attractions offered

The surroundings

The temptations

Could you stay firm to your ground, stick to what you wanted initially and move forward accordingly? 

:: regards ::

Rae

The Will

Everyone should be very well aware of the song above.
Don't you?

It must be a hell kind of truthfulness shown in the lyrics and adding up the lovely rhythm, everyone is in love with it.
Summing up that we are all the same kind of man.
Nobody else but human beings.


But still, variations instill in each and everyone of us.
Its just that we have a common ground for something.
Speaking of which, I can see many people around me wanted to go for some healthy food once in a while.
Then I realize how lucky for I am having healthy food almost everyday of my life!
And whenever I eat outside, I am only looking for unhealthy.


Damn hell of mentality.


There are certain people that gets very much contented with little things that happen.
Probably having a nice meal will make them thrill to the max.
Do you search for the kind of life whereby you continue doing the same thing for the next 20-30 years?
I wonder that could be me.


Well, get back to reality.
I don't have any burden for now even though I'm already 1 year in the society.
Time to really consider where its time for me to get a burden now... *yawn*



Time to go home!
Tomorrow holiday!
Yay!!!




Toodles!! =) Long weekend... Bliss =D





:: regards ::



RAe





PS : Hello cold weather! =D

The Dance

Lovers dance when they're falling in love.
I don't recall dancing with Mr. Ed before.
Does it mean that we're simply not in love with each other?


Seriously.
Everyone is tying the knot.
Don't you think that I want that too?

Duh. I already have my targeted age of marriage if you do know me well.
But that just not gonna happen.


Things happen for a reason.
Step out on your comfort zone.
You'll not grow if you stay put on the ground.


Up to date 11th June 2014, I've eaten a lot.
Many kinds of food.
Something that I do realize recently.
Something that I couldn't care less in the past.


The level of your life is strongly determined by the people you hanky panky around.
That you lingam around.


Speaking of which, I really wish to get some professional certs that could help me to put my feet in overseas.
Why limit yourself when there's so much more that you could do?


Perhaps, getting a vineyard/a barn and build yourself a villa and start managing on your vineyard/barn?
I'm a horsey!
Probably manage a horse yard and you might be surprised you could train/own a horse like The Secretariat?
The big red!



Dreams. Remain dreams.
I wonder when can I step out from all these and go over somewhere and be invisible for years.
I want to see aurora.
I want to see the peak.
I want to see Grand Canyon.
I want to see fishes but I don't wanna see Trigger fish. Asshole fish.


I want to go to those deserts and become a teacher for months over there!!



Girl with pea brain with big dreams. Ohhhmmm-nooomm--noooommms!


How about, owning a wedding isle along the beach/the barn? =D




:: regards ::



RAe




PS: Time to do more reading!

The Age

This song covered by James is currently very popular.
No doubt its nice with his version.
But I still prefer the version above.


The same lyrics, same rhythm..
Different age
Different time zone
Different scenarios and different surrounding matters


Do you still remember what have you done 5 years ago, this day, this time?
That was 2009.
The flashy-back.



Time really flies.
I am totally another different person compared to the "me" 5 years ago.


Are you happy with the change?
Are you elated?
Are you satisfied?



There's so much of me that have grown.
Be it internally or externally.
I do pamper much on my own.
I don't even wear what I used to like/buy.
The obvious change? We're all using a smart phone now. =)

Should I get this? 

Damn. I was looking at Sony A7 then somebody else tempted me with this.

With the "special" pricing. 

Damn. It's really tempting. 

I'm effin tempted deep within me!!! 

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The people that used to be so close with you whereby you have lots of common topics with, no longer the one you'll think of or you wish to share the information with. 

Do you feel/experience the same thing?

It's very sad in one sense but.. 

Why force to discuss on the uncommon topics? 

In some way, we have to learn to forgo what we used to have. 

Do things that make you happy. 

Relationship? It takes two very passionate people to try hard to be together even though that times are bad or that there are many obstacles along the way. 

Same goes to friendship isn't it? 

You can't clap with a hand. 

Time to forgo what you used to have and welcome what is coming ahead. 

Oh ya! I'm officially at work for 1 year! 

Happy 1st year anniversary of work Rachel Ngiam! =D 

With what you are doing now, can you imagine yourself doing the same damn thing for another 10 years? 20 years? or shall I say, 30 years, the age whereby you retire? 

Hmmm. Should you be doing something different to make sure that you do not repeat the same single thing for 30 years? 

You choose your own life. 

Be responsible for that. 

Time to get back to work! *Yawn*

Toodles! 

:: regards ::

RAe

PS: Half more year to end of the year. Care to try something different?  :)

曾经

The Woman

The song of the "soul"..


Spoken with a very heartiest friend of mine.
She said:" Every relationship would be fine without any financial issues".


She is married for a second time, with child.
It was very unfortunate of her that her first marriage didn't turn out well.
A very tough lady I would say.
Despite the fact that the first marriage didn't end up well, or shall I say that didn't work out, she took up the courage to accept and believe in marriage once again.


It's not easy for a woman to be able to raise a children on her own with the economy nowadays.
It's definitely difficult.
What's even worse?
The husband is in debt.
The kind of condition whereby they have literally "blocked" the view in front of you.


The first question that I asked her was whether she knew about that when she married him.
The usual kind of lies that men tell.
She didn't knew about that.
Being practical and rational, she wouldn't have married him if she knew that.
Come on, the world is fair and realistic.


It's the woman's whole life that she is giving if she marries.
Why on earth does guys have to lie about anything?


We are nothing but humans.
Sole human.
I felt touched immediately when she said that she is married to him, no choice but to grow the family together. To go through the hard times hand and hand to overcome everything.


Hopefully that the guy will appreciate and eventually lead a happy living in the future.
What if..
What if the guy decided to give up someday?

Oh gosh I couldn't imagine that from happening.
Shouldn't have married at the beginning.



Woman... woman..
I know I sound very negative about marriage.
It's the kind of insecure you get about living together with another person.
Insecure can exists in many different forms.
The most common ones? Financial issues.
C'est La Vie.


There was one fact that I agreed with my friend.
With your egoism, you are not going anywhere.
It's your family.
What is family for if you are not able to share your deepest of thoughts/conditions with them?


True enough.
I don't understand what is there to hide from your OWN family members.
It's your mum and dad.
You think that you are very ashamed when your family knows that you are in some kind of problems?


Some people "self-claimed" to be family oriented but they can't even let them know the real situation of themselves.
I can't brain about that.
Hello? Are you sane? Uuugghhh.




Honesty saves a lot of shits.
But it kills a lot of shits as well.




Fact of life? I will never lie to my mum.
I'm good means good.
Bad means never good.
You are not going anywhere good if you can't even be honest to them.
Shameful is the only word that I can think of.
Ma I wanna live together with you for the rest of my life.
The one that will never keep anything from me.
I only want someone that never hide anything from me. That's the definition of family.
Try Google if you don't get the true meaning of it.



Get a life seriously.





:: regards ::




RAe




PS: Can LOVE and ONLY LOVE itself conquers everything?