The Comma's

 Looking back at life, *peek*, many things happened.


There are both good and bad stuffs, depending on how you see it.

There is something really worth celebrating this year.
We are finally going for vacation as WHOLE.
My whole family.
Aawwww... Lovely! The last time we were on vacations together was back in 2007.


That was, Hong Kong!
I remember pretty well that I used to love that place, practically only because of the Disneyland.
Well, things change, and people change.


This year, it would be Universal Studio instead of Disneyland.
It would be Winter!

Aaahhh!! Just the thought of it makes me thrill!
Thankfully, I'm no longer in the headache of searching on the places of interest for Part A.
For now, its just about waiting for the right time to come by and continue on for Part B.
=D



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About work wise... Well, it's getting more and more pain in the arse for me.
Working is never an easy thing.
Besides, who likes working?

I do think that I could get used to not working, staying at home and laze for the whole day, or so you say, life? Heheheh.



After getting "gaji buta" for more than half a year, I do think that it's practically time for me to buck up and do something right.
No more snaking so much I hope.
I know that there's a part of me that knows what I wanted to do in the deep heart core.


But wait, what would that be?
How do I even know what do I really want/love doing?

I'm stuck in between the public relation industry and the... "office-like" kind of style?
I could use some help over here you know.
I'm thinking of joining another competition, but another part of me, I don't really want it.


How to live a living with my thinking being so extreme? =\


Back to my work now. I do wish/hope that I could close a deal on my own.
I do really wish to prove that I could actually excel in what I am doing now.
Would it be alright if I take a little too much time than others? =((


I could use some ranting you know.
I can't wait for the arrival of April.
I'll be away from Malaysia for 2 weeks. Eh no.
To be exact, I'll be away from home for 2 weeks.
The first week, hopefully it won't be stressful, second week, it would be leisure..


Aahhh... Splendid.. I could use a vacation!! =D



Toodles people! This week being outstation is hectic.
Curse the tenders. I hate you.
I hate being outstation with somebody else.
It kills me for the fact that I'm in the land of food paradise and yet, I am kinda not allowed to enjoy them.
Thanks to some "guts" that some "people" are having.


For sure, I will come here on my own one day.
And when that day comes..... OOHHMMMM NNOOOMMM NOOOMMM!
Who cares if I runs out of shape? =P




Till then, I bid you farewell!

Tata!



:: regards ::




RAe




PS: I miss you..

The Youth

The first time I heard this song, OHMAIGOD why is it so saddening?

For me, its a flat, so its saddening. But somehow, the lyrics make perfect sense.
I've seen the world, done it all...
That's what I want for now, I have yet to see the world and yet to do it all.


But wait, define "world" and "all".
How do you measure that?


The ruler in each individual is different, I don't even know how wide/narrow is mine.
But when is the right time for you to judge if you have seen it all?
At least, not now, not at the moment, not 2014. Herh! =P



Life? It's procrastination, it's lazyness, it's demotivating.

I feel like I'm nothing but dead walking, no hope, no directions in life. It's devastating. =(



Changes - The power of changes...!
The environment that changes people.
If you are someone who's an introvert, would you apply for a job that needs an extrovert's properties?
If you say that you're who are you, you are what you are built up of, and you expect things to grow/flow according to your way, and you want people to accept you for who you are, does it make sense?


If the qualities that you are having are not positive, you know that they are not right, would you still let it be and wish that people would accept you for who you are?


Yes, if someone loves you, he/she will accept you for who you are and what you are made up of.
Still, it would highly be appreciated if you are willing to change for the good, and to make people who loves you happy.
It is definitely lovely that you are accepted the way you are, but it will be tiring if indulgence is being a little too much.
If you could change yourself for the good, and to be upgraded in life, are you willing to take up the changes?
Would you claim that you are losing your originality instead of trying to be a better person?



I am a quiet person, I would say that I am an introvert, I don't like being extrovert actually.
Do I look as if I am someone like that to you?
I know I am known to be someone cheerful, noisy, happy-go-lucky.
But deep within me, I enjoy silence pretty much...
In fact, I enjoy doing things alone once in a while...
Traveling alone perhaps?
I actually enjoy spending time or you would say "wasting" time by the beach, waiting for the sunrise/sunset..
Probably do some reading... Enjoying life...
How pleasant would that be? =)



Someone once told me that she would like to have 10 properties by the time she retires..
That's her dream.
Every person has different dreams.
For me, I don't need to be loaded, I only wish to laze around...
HAHAHAH! You might want to consider me being someone without dreams.
But that's my dream!
I do not hope to have a lot of money, I dream to have one house in every countries if I do have the extra money.
One in every states in Australia, Japan, Korea, and UK perhaps? HAHAHAH!
But if I don't, I would want to have a house of my own, and then keep traveling around at least twice a year.. Teehee! =D




But, I am so lazy to change what is wrong within me now.
Slap me please will ya? =O





:: regards ::




RAe




PS: 浩瀚的世界裡更迭的人海裡和你互相輝映

The Hay

污点始终是污点...

The Last Time

The Last Time.
Last time for?
The last time for me to stay broke for the month.


HAHAHAHAHA.


Chinese New Year is around the corner and yet I'm so broke for everything.
How to survive lah during CNY?!
Dang!


But Thankfully, I have bought few pieces, still, I would like to have one CheongSam.

Gish. But I have no time to hunt for that.
INEEDTOGOFORGYMVERYFREQUENTLYTHESEFEWDAYS.
Because I have photoshoot during the weekend and they requested me to lose some weight.


Oh gawd man I am so pitiful! ='((




I was reading something online and I accidentally found another paradise.

Koh Phangan, Thailand.

I am so wanna getaway to so many places around the world. 

Still, Kah-Ching is the issue and also annual leaves.

I have limited amount of annual leaves!!! =(

Actually, I have normal amount of annual leaves but it is just that, they are already well located for my upcoming vacation plans. 

Teehee! =D

Feel like getting married? 

This is the thrill. =)

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Maldives would be the next destination before marriage!
Because I don't wanna go there for honeymoon or the proposal or whatsoever.


Wait a minute!

I will get married meh?!
LOL!



No thrill/heartbeat for that at the moment! =D
Even.... for the next 3-4 years! Yeehaw!




I only wanna work, have fun, travel, earn more kah-ching, eat, and everything else not related to commitments and more commitments! =)





Yay!




Have a pleasant weekend ahead. Longer weekend. But too bad Mr. E is gonna be so occupied for the weekend. ME? I'm gonna shake legs at home!





:: regards ::




RAeeeeyyy

The Motherhood

Everything has been going on well between me and my family and with Mr. E.
But there is now one particular stuff that I'm afraid of the most.

All these wouldn't have happened if we only have to deal amongst us, the couple.
But sadly, marriage is never about two persons loving much about one another and getting married.
It is basically about 2 persons who want to get married with the whole family that they are having. FML.


I have always wanted to give my mum the very best that I have. Just so you know, she's the only person that loves me so much when everybody else hates me.
Well. It might not be only her.
I still have the rest of the families.
The dad.
The Bro.
The other mums.
I have always tried to work things out so that there could be a fair balance between the mum and Mr. E. But this time around, whereby I understand the positive intentions that Mr. E is having. But I dont really understand why is the mum making such a big fuss over these kind of little things.


Perhaps, the tradition matters.
The CNY matters.
Perhaps.
But, I don't really understand.
Is there a need to be that firm over such little things?


Damn. Seriously, there is a need to have a common ground between me and Mr. E. Else, we would be suffering from a lot more of pressures. Stress. Tension. And everything bad. So bad I could be suffocated to death.


I wish. I wish to be far away from all these nonsense that could have been avoided. There must be a balance between all these.


Communication is what that matters the most.
But sometimes our egoism is so strong that we take things for granted thinking that our another half SHOULD/MUST/WILL do it according to our wish.
The most important rule to having a trouble free relationship, from having all the frictions, communication and never make assumptions.


We are in a relationship. But we are not each other. We should always be educated of what is going on in our head to clear off the obstacles ahead us.
It is never ashamed to let each others know about your feeling about some particular things.
That's where the value of true relationship comes from.
The respect. The individual. The love...



No matter what that happens, your own mum is irreplaceable.
Be it your mum.
My mum.
His mum.
Her mum.
It's our own mums.




I truly wish that all these unhappy choices/moments would leave together with the lunar 2013.
Embracing a brighter better and happier lunar 2014 that is coming ahead of us.



Best regards,



Raaaeeeyy

The Hay

Many things have been going on in my head recently..
The Good, The Bad, The Neutral, and Everything Else.


Something serious has been longing in my head for quite some time.
I was thinking, will I be ready to stop fighting when I am allowed to?


If I could afford to live a wonderful luxurious life without having to work, would I still work?
What would I do then?


This is a serious question okay!
I am not joking or dreaming, I know for sure, that this particular day would come.
Someday, somehow, but not now =)


So, I have got myself some answers.
I would definitely stop working.
And...
Shop with my family.
Eat with my family.
Take up some classes, be it languages or music instruments.
Continue with stitching so that my loved ones would feel the warmth =)
Most importantly, I would like to take up some designing classes, I would like to pursue in interior designing and then... creating some small unique stuffs.
So cute that I can't live without it =D


I could foresee myself being so busy and occupied okay! Teehee!!





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Just when I am feeling I have gain some fighting spirit to "pia" in work.
Here comes the CNY!
Yoodddoooo!! A pail of cold water being poured!


Everytime I enter UPM, I feel... special.
Just so you know, Mr. E studies there.
I have always imagined that I could attend his big day in that particular place.
I am always amazed with the area of the Uni, after UM.
But now, I am no longer mesmerized with UM.
I am like, I will be there averagely one day weekly okay!


The hallucination of cheering in UPM would not be coming true.
No worries Mr. E, it's alright. Cheers okay! =D




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Speaking of which, it is already the New Year!
So how was your achievement in 2013?
New year resolution?
Well, you need to have some resolutions each year that you are keen to achieve in.
Your hard work, your effort? Will be seen even though you have not speak/yell about it.
Mine?


1. Secret
2. Secret
3. Secret
4. Travel to another Country for the year! *How lucky that Mr. E got to visit 2 different countries last year, UK and Australia. Damn!*
5. I want to get myself a memorable present on my Birthday! Because I didn't get myself one precious one in 2013.



Yay! Cheers for CNY!
Cheers for holidays! =D


Wish everyone in the pink of health and everything nice and smooth throughout the year of the horsey!
Good luck!





:: regards::



RAe



PS: Katy Perry - In another life, I would be your girl

The Eve

New love song of the year!
So sweeeeetttt!! ccwwhhheeettt....!!!
Another song that will make you feel like you wanna get married.


There's always some songs that will make you feel like marrying.
Want to be in the white dress so badly!!!!






This would be it.
Hahahaha!!!
You know what?
I used to imagine myself and everyone I love suit up for my big day and this song is being played.


Well yeah, silly me!


Now?

It's not that I have the wish to be in the white dress no more. =)


There's so many other things in life that you need to catch up with besides all the little white thing! =D




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It's the night of Christmas again.
The time of the year, the season of greetings!!!



I have always have a wish,
I wish to kiss with my beloved under the mistletoe,
in the snow.



Awwww.... Isn't it sweet? =P




Speaking about sweetness, isn't it sweet to have someone who would loves you unconditionally?
There is always someone who will be there for me.
Someone knowing that he himself is not good enough, willing to work extra hard to give me all that I wish for.
Someone knowing that he has different levels of education and background, and yet, willing to be there for me no matter what.
Why would such loving people exists?


Too bad I prefer not to hurt people so kind...
I'll be cursed.... =((



Would someone I love heartily do all these for me....?




Dreams remain dreams.




:: regards ::


RAe





PS: Merry Merry Christmas people. Have an awesome one =)