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The Woman

The song of the "soul"..


Spoken with a very heartiest friend of mine.
She said:" Every relationship would be fine without any financial issues".


She is married for a second time, with child.
It was very unfortunate of her that her first marriage didn't turn out well.
A very tough lady I would say.
Despite the fact that the first marriage didn't end up well, or shall I say that didn't work out, she took up the courage to accept and believe in marriage once again.


It's not easy for a woman to be able to raise a children on her own with the economy nowadays.
It's definitely difficult.
What's even worse?
The husband is in debt.
The kind of condition whereby they have literally "blocked" the view in front of you.


The first question that I asked her was whether she knew about that when she married him.
The usual kind of lies that men tell.
She didn't knew about that.
Being practical and rational, she wouldn't have married him if she knew that.
Come on, the world is fair and realistic.


It's the woman's whole life that she is giving if she marries.
Why on earth does guys have to lie about anything?


We are nothing but humans.
Sole human.
I felt touched immediately when she said that she is married to him, no choice but to grow the family together. To go through the hard times hand and hand to overcome everything.


Hopefully that the guy will appreciate and eventually lead a happy living in the future.
What if..
What if the guy decided to give up someday?

Oh gosh I couldn't imagine that from happening.
Shouldn't have married at the beginning.



Woman... woman..
I know I sound very negative about marriage.
It's the kind of insecure you get about living together with another person.
Insecure can exists in many different forms.
The most common ones? Financial issues.
C'est La Vie.


There was one fact that I agreed with my friend.
With your egoism, you are not going anywhere.
It's your family.
What is family for if you are not able to share your deepest of thoughts/conditions with them?


True enough.
I don't understand what is there to hide from your OWN family members.
It's your mum and dad.
You think that you are very ashamed when your family knows that you are in some kind of problems?


Some people "self-claimed" to be family oriented but they can't even let them know the real situation of themselves.
I can't brain about that.
Hello? Are you sane? Uuugghhh.




Honesty saves a lot of shits.
But it kills a lot of shits as well.




Fact of life? I will never lie to my mum.
I'm good means good.
Bad means never good.
You are not going anywhere good if you can't even be honest to them.
Shameful is the only word that I can think of.
Ma I wanna live together with you for the rest of my life.
The one that will never keep anything from me.
I only want someone that never hide anything from me. That's the definition of family.
Try Google if you don't get the true meaning of it.



Get a life seriously.





:: regards ::




RAe




PS: Can LOVE and ONLY LOVE itself conquers everything?

The Wall

Many things that happened recently got me into thinking.
Am I someone who will get married?


I definitely do not want to be like a friend of mine.
The only thing that is left in her mind is only the boyfriend, fiance, husband and my closest of family.

I do not know about her.
Besides the closest of family, I still have family.

Friends that are as close as your family.
The people which are irreplaceable.
It made me thought of who I used to be.
Who I was.
I would even not be close to my own mum because of that boyfriend.


As for now, if you ask me about getting married, it really got me thinking.
Am I someone supposed to get married?



I feel like I wanna stick with my mum for the rest of my life.


Am I suitable to get married in that sense? How about my boyfriend's parents?
What about them?


It's really a dilemma that I'm having within.



Well, besides the thinking part, I'm so busy with life.


Life is pretty much contented for me.


Paid short vacation to Mactan Island. Hmmm. ObamaNotBad.
Self-paid vacation to Tawau and Mataking, hmmm! Goood! ;)



Has been spoken to colleagues that are going for vacation with their girlfriends.
Usual conversation that will come up are, paying for their girlfriends.


Great! Awesome! I told them as usual, find me a boyfriend that will sponsor my everything!


And then... Here it goes... The same ol'stories... yada yaddaa yaadaaa...




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Time flies so effing fast and we're already a quarter of bidding goodbye to April 2014.

Achievement so far?

Yeah! At least I have been to overseas, another chop on my passport =)


The dream of leaving my footprints on 10 countries by the age of 25.

Would it be possible? Hmmm...!
Com'on boss, send me to oversea for training!!!



Life's....? Couldn't be more awesome.

Fully occupied with things around me.
I rarely have the time to slack and mingle at home! Imagine that!
Hmmm!



There were so many inspirations that were running through my head but when it comes to this platform, HOLA! Everything that was planned and arranged disappear.



The power of my pea brain.


Yeah.



Till then, I bid you good night =)



:: regards ::



RAe



PS: In need of slumber...!

The Comma's

 Looking back at life, *peek*, many things happened.


There are both good and bad stuffs, depending on how you see it.

There is something really worth celebrating this year.
We are finally going for vacation as WHOLE.
My whole family.
Aawwww... Lovely! The last time we were on vacations together was back in 2007.


That was, Hong Kong!
I remember pretty well that I used to love that place, practically only because of the Disneyland.
Well, things change, and people change.


This year, it would be Universal Studio instead of Disneyland.
It would be Winter!

Aaahhh!! Just the thought of it makes me thrill!
Thankfully, I'm no longer in the headache of searching on the places of interest for Part A.
For now, its just about waiting for the right time to come by and continue on for Part B.
=D



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About work wise... Well, it's getting more and more pain in the arse for me.
Working is never an easy thing.
Besides, who likes working?

I do think that I could get used to not working, staying at home and laze for the whole day, or so you say, life? Heheheh.



After getting "gaji buta" for more than half a year, I do think that it's practically time for me to buck up and do something right.
No more snaking so much I hope.
I know that there's a part of me that knows what I wanted to do in the deep heart core.


But wait, what would that be?
How do I even know what do I really want/love doing?

I'm stuck in between the public relation industry and the... "office-like" kind of style?
I could use some help over here you know.
I'm thinking of joining another competition, but another part of me, I don't really want it.


How to live a living with my thinking being so extreme? =\


Back to my work now. I do wish/hope that I could close a deal on my own.
I do really wish to prove that I could actually excel in what I am doing now.
Would it be alright if I take a little too much time than others? =((


I could use some ranting you know.
I can't wait for the arrival of April.
I'll be away from Malaysia for 2 weeks. Eh no.
To be exact, I'll be away from home for 2 weeks.
The first week, hopefully it won't be stressful, second week, it would be leisure..


Aahhh... Splendid.. I could use a vacation!! =D



Toodles people! This week being outstation is hectic.
Curse the tenders. I hate you.
I hate being outstation with somebody else.
It kills me for the fact that I'm in the land of food paradise and yet, I am kinda not allowed to enjoy them.
Thanks to some "guts" that some "people" are having.


For sure, I will come here on my own one day.
And when that day comes..... OOHHMMMM NNOOOMMM NOOOMMM!
Who cares if I runs out of shape? =P




Till then, I bid you farewell!

Tata!



:: regards ::




RAe




PS: I miss you..

The Youth

The first time I heard this song, OHMAIGOD why is it so saddening?

For me, its a flat, so its saddening. But somehow, the lyrics make perfect sense.
I've seen the world, done it all...
That's what I want for now, I have yet to see the world and yet to do it all.


But wait, define "world" and "all".
How do you measure that?


The ruler in each individual is different, I don't even know how wide/narrow is mine.
But when is the right time for you to judge if you have seen it all?
At least, not now, not at the moment, not 2014. Herh! =P



Life? It's procrastination, it's lazyness, it's demotivating.

I feel like I'm nothing but dead walking, no hope, no directions in life. It's devastating. =(



Changes - The power of changes...!
The environment that changes people.
If you are someone who's an introvert, would you apply for a job that needs an extrovert's properties?
If you say that you're who are you, you are what you are built up of, and you expect things to grow/flow according to your way, and you want people to accept you for who you are, does it make sense?


If the qualities that you are having are not positive, you know that they are not right, would you still let it be and wish that people would accept you for who you are?


Yes, if someone loves you, he/she will accept you for who you are and what you are made up of.
Still, it would highly be appreciated if you are willing to change for the good, and to make people who loves you happy.
It is definitely lovely that you are accepted the way you are, but it will be tiring if indulgence is being a little too much.
If you could change yourself for the good, and to be upgraded in life, are you willing to take up the changes?
Would you claim that you are losing your originality instead of trying to be a better person?



I am a quiet person, I would say that I am an introvert, I don't like being extrovert actually.
Do I look as if I am someone like that to you?
I know I am known to be someone cheerful, noisy, happy-go-lucky.
But deep within me, I enjoy silence pretty much...
In fact, I enjoy doing things alone once in a while...
Traveling alone perhaps?
I actually enjoy spending time or you would say "wasting" time by the beach, waiting for the sunrise/sunset..
Probably do some reading... Enjoying life...
How pleasant would that be? =)



Someone once told me that she would like to have 10 properties by the time she retires..
That's her dream.
Every person has different dreams.
For me, I don't need to be loaded, I only wish to laze around...
HAHAHAH! You might want to consider me being someone without dreams.
But that's my dream!
I do not hope to have a lot of money, I dream to have one house in every countries if I do have the extra money.
One in every states in Australia, Japan, Korea, and UK perhaps? HAHAHAH!
But if I don't, I would want to have a house of my own, and then keep traveling around at least twice a year.. Teehee! =D




But, I am so lazy to change what is wrong within me now.
Slap me please will ya? =O





:: regards ::




RAe




PS: 浩瀚的世界裡更迭的人海裡和你互相輝映

The Hay

污点始终是污点...

The Last Time

The Last Time.
Last time for?
The last time for me to stay broke for the month.


HAHAHAHAHA.


Chinese New Year is around the corner and yet I'm so broke for everything.
How to survive lah during CNY?!
Dang!


But Thankfully, I have bought few pieces, still, I would like to have one CheongSam.

Gish. But I have no time to hunt for that.
INEEDTOGOFORGYMVERYFREQUENTLYTHESEFEWDAYS.
Because I have photoshoot during the weekend and they requested me to lose some weight.


Oh gawd man I am so pitiful! ='((




I was reading something online and I accidentally found another paradise.

Koh Phangan, Thailand.

I am so wanna getaway to so many places around the world. 

Still, Kah-Ching is the issue and also annual leaves.

I have limited amount of annual leaves!!! =(

Actually, I have normal amount of annual leaves but it is just that, they are already well located for my upcoming vacation plans. 

Teehee! =D

Feel like getting married? 

This is the thrill. =)

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Maldives would be the next destination before marriage!
Because I don't wanna go there for honeymoon or the proposal or whatsoever.


Wait a minute!

I will get married meh?!
LOL!



No thrill/heartbeat for that at the moment! =D
Even.... for the next 3-4 years! Yeehaw!




I only wanna work, have fun, travel, earn more kah-ching, eat, and everything else not related to commitments and more commitments! =)





Yay!




Have a pleasant weekend ahead. Longer weekend. But too bad Mr. E is gonna be so occupied for the weekend. ME? I'm gonna shake legs at home!





:: regards ::




RAeeeeyyy