January 2013

The beginning of the year was definitely interesting.
Life is definitely like a roller coaster.

There are ups and downs in life.
Mine? Perfecto!

Nah, imperfections are what that makes life even more beautiful and interesting =)

In order to stay in love, be lovable.


Its fate that the scary ones did what he did to me.
Well, thanks to him, according to Mr. E. herh.


Final semester is a pain in the arse.
But I'm appreciating and enjoying much that I get to spend time at home.
More time with people. The coursemates, the freakoz and the gang.
For this, I thank him for what he did. Else, I would not be who I am today =D
I would not know how much people around me care about me.
Even the least expected ones.
I didn't know that they concern about me that much. Like effin seriously.

Everything do happen for a reason.


The dates to remember Rachel Ngiam:

5th January 2013.
12th January 2013.
19th January 2013.
8th March 2013.
9th March 2013.
23rd March 2013.


Hey Mum, sorry that I need to loan that much from you.
I'm a pain in the ass daughter.
But I'll make sure everything pays off in the near future.
I don't wanna end my final semester, I don't wanna work.
But I can't wait for the adventure!


Life is full of unexpectedness. It's what that makes you worth living =)

Your shame. My dream.



:: regards ::



Rae


ps: The baby horsey. The baby mickey mouse =)

Yawn

I have been having a great time.
With great people around me.
Splendid moment every day and night with different people.
I'm lucky indeed =)


Thanks for all the love showered =D


:: regards ::


Rae

Sunshine!

Flashed back. I once called someone sunshine.
Ha! That moment of life was definitely a devastating ones.
Well, they are all flashed back memories for now.

Times have been both good and bad.
Thanks to the people who has been existing for this moment of life.
Human beings are definitely one meanie scary creature.

I ... practically ...
Ehem, all that I can say is, hanging out with those bunch of rich kids definitely opened up my eyes.
Can you imagine a 20 year old kid having a 1 year old child?
And the wife, is a Thai and she's in her 30s?
That's fascinating.

And, they are not registered husband and wife.
Ohhh ohhh! The world is of so much more for me to explore!

People come and go.
They are just meant to sabotage your life somehow and to mend you and then mold you into something else.
Better or worst? It definitely depends on your own preferences.
On who you want to become.

Whether you like it or not, that's the fact of life.









:: regards ::




RAe


ps: Loving him was Red! =P

Thanks

Thanks to the background of my studies, there must be an answer for everything.

The fact of life is, not everything has an answer.
You just have to accept that.

Went for a trip to Koh Samui & Hatyai with the relatives few days ago.
It was an awesome experience.
An awesome trip.


I am just too lazy to elaborate.
I'm tired. T.T



:: regards ::



Rae


ps: 丑陋的事实，陈诉得再唯美，终究是丑陋的。
而美丽的东西，再怎么丑化，那美丽的本质也不会因此而改变。

A better place called EARTH

Hard times had passed.
I'm getting better. Good =)
Most of the things have come to the senses now.
Everything made perfect sense.

Basically, what's done, is done.
I am welcoming the future with open arms.
Everybody around me loves me.
I know that for sure.

I love them too.
Owh I miss Dellynn Lim the Kuen much.
She's getting better over there in the East.
Can't wait to see her in Jan.
Too bad that I will not be able to spend much time with her over there in Jan.
Too bad.
Thanks to a dear friend.
There will be a chance, soon! =D

Many things are happening to me now.
Be it good or bad, they are happening.
And, its GooD =D



Till then, toodles! :P




:: regards ::



Rae

Pondering

Decision making can really be a pain in the ass.

Here I am in a position whereby I have to start deciding on what to choose/do.

What do I really want or need?

Sometimes what you think you want might not be what you really want in the end.

I really wish that I do not have to think or to make any decision.

But, I can't keep myself calm when I do have a conclusion myself.

That's torturing. Plain torturing.

I wish whereby someday my brain could just stop functioning.

Hell Life. Hola!


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Well basically I enjoy spending time in Pharmacy.

It feels great to be back in the medicinal world, seeing people, different kind of people, knowing how life is for some people, knowing what's seriously happening in the world outside.

Kids. They are fun.
One particular kid just made my day today. And it feels great.
But I cannot imagine having my own kid. That would be torturing!
I mean, one day two days with them would be fun.
You want me to be like, 24/7 with them?
They can really scare the hell out of me.
Not to say scare.
But to actually, torture me, like literally.

LOL. I sound evil. But for sure, I love children. =D
It feels great when the kid I spent time with today can remember my name and birthday!
That feels..... AWESOME. =PP



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I don't want night life liao. Once in a while is okay.
But, not every night please.
That's torturing =((








I overspent this two months. Double of what I should be spending. =((

I'm a pain in the ass..


And I do not feel right, right now.
That's torturing!!! T.T
I need to rant!




:: regards ::





Rae



ps: Love sent from peninsula to the east of Msia. Please take real good care of yourself. I'll see you when I see you =))

Grieving

Grieving?
For some day some time later, it'll all come to an end.

Went to Old time neighbor's daughter's wedding dinner last night.
It was kinda... bored and odd.


The only thing I can do during such an odd and boring place is, sms-ing and playing games.


What that have came to my realization is that,
parents are definitely irreplaceable.


They willing to just do anything for you.
They're sad when you're sad.
They're happy when you're happy.
Or should I say...
They are more than happy when you're happy.
They are more than sad when you're sad.


Everyone has their own problems.
The one whom we can share our own problems and then come out to a conclusion or solution together is the one we can consider as the soul mate.
When you love someone, you have to accept each and every part of them as if they're yours.



* This was composed on last Sunday, too bad that I did not have enough time so I left everything hanging till now.



I have actually come to a realization.
A realization whereby, each individual is unique and they have different mindset.
WE have to learn and try to accept views from other people.
A tree must somehow learn how to tilt to the direction of sunlight in order to grow.
We can't just go straight all the while, standing still.
That's, LIFE.



Meeting different people each day makes you grow.
Meeting the same people each day makes you grow as well.
There are things that are not always within our control.
We just have to learn to accept them for who they are.
Its hard. But, that's the reality of it.


I'm starting and trying something new now.
Why stay in the comfort zone? Plainly because its comfortable.
But, the sad part of it is that you will never grow when you continue staying in your comfort zone.
Sad. But. True.


Learn how to love yourself before you even start to love others.
You don't know how to love others if you do not know how to love yourself .


There is some realization.
Its something positive.
Which is good.
At least I have a target now. =)



Socializing is hard.
And I'm learning.
I hope its not too late.
I hope.


Have been sleeping late, waking up late lately.
Its DIFFERENT.
Very much different.



Till then, toodles!




:: regards ::



Rae



ps: You know what you want in life =) You create your own luck!