The Last Time

The Last Time.
Last time for?
The last time for me to stay broke for the month.


HAHAHAHAHA.


Chinese New Year is around the corner and yet I'm so broke for everything.
How to survive lah during CNY?!
Dang!


But Thankfully, I have bought few pieces, still, I would like to have one CheongSam.

Gish. But I have no time to hunt for that.
INEEDTOGOFORGYMVERYFREQUENTLYTHESEFEWDAYS.
Because I have photoshoot during the weekend and they requested me to lose some weight.


Oh gawd man I am so pitiful! ='((




I was reading something online and I accidentally found another paradise.

Koh Phangan, Thailand.

I am so wanna getaway to so many places around the world. 

Still, Kah-Ching is the issue and also annual leaves.

I have limited amount of annual leaves!!! =(

Actually, I have normal amount of annual leaves but it is just that, they are already well located for my upcoming vacation plans. 

Teehee! =D

Feel like getting married? 

This is the thrill. =)

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Maldives would be the next destination before marriage!
Because I don't wanna go there for honeymoon or the proposal or whatsoever.


Wait a minute!

I will get married meh?!
LOL!



No thrill/heartbeat for that at the moment! =D
Even.... for the next 3-4 years! Yeehaw!




I only wanna work, have fun, travel, earn more kah-ching, eat, and everything else not related to commitments and more commitments! =)





Yay!




Have a pleasant weekend ahead. Longer weekend. But too bad Mr. E is gonna be so occupied for the weekend. ME? I'm gonna shake legs at home!





:: regards ::




RAeeeeyyy

The Motherhood

Everything has been going on well between me and my family and with Mr. E.
But there is now one particular stuff that I'm afraid of the most.

All these wouldn't have happened if we only have to deal amongst us, the couple.
But sadly, marriage is never about two persons loving much about one another and getting married.
It is basically about 2 persons who want to get married with the whole family that they are having. FML.


I have always wanted to give my mum the very best that I have. Just so you know, she's the only person that loves me so much when everybody else hates me.
Well. It might not be only her.
I still have the rest of the families.
The dad.
The Bro.
The other mums.
I have always tried to work things out so that there could be a fair balance between the mum and Mr. E. But this time around, whereby I understand the positive intentions that Mr. E is having. But I dont really understand why is the mum making such a big fuss over these kind of little things.


Perhaps, the tradition matters.
The CNY matters.
Perhaps.
But, I don't really understand.
Is there a need to be that firm over such little things?


Damn. Seriously, there is a need to have a common ground between me and Mr. E. Else, we would be suffering from a lot more of pressures. Stress. Tension. And everything bad. So bad I could be suffocated to death.


I wish. I wish to be far away from all these nonsense that could have been avoided. There must be a balance between all these.


Communication is what that matters the most.
But sometimes our egoism is so strong that we take things for granted thinking that our another half SHOULD/MUST/WILL do it according to our wish.
The most important rule to having a trouble free relationship, from having all the frictions, communication and never make assumptions.


We are in a relationship. But we are not each other. We should always be educated of what is going on in our head to clear off the obstacles ahead us.
It is never ashamed to let each others know about your feeling about some particular things.
That's where the value of true relationship comes from.
The respect. The individual. The love...



No matter what that happens, your own mum is irreplaceable.
Be it your mum.
My mum.
His mum.
Her mum.
It's our own mums.




I truly wish that all these unhappy choices/moments would leave together with the lunar 2013.
Embracing a brighter better and happier lunar 2014 that is coming ahead of us.



Best regards,



Raaaeeeyy

The Hay

Many things have been going on in my head recently..
The Good, The Bad, The Neutral, and Everything Else.


Something serious has been longing in my head for quite some time.
I was thinking, will I be ready to stop fighting when I am allowed to?


If I could afford to live a wonderful luxurious life without having to work, would I still work?
What would I do then?


This is a serious question okay!
I am not joking or dreaming, I know for sure, that this particular day would come.
Someday, somehow, but not now =)


So, I have got myself some answers.
I would definitely stop working.
And...
Shop with my family.
Eat with my family.
Take up some classes, be it languages or music instruments.
Continue with stitching so that my loved ones would feel the warmth =)
Most importantly, I would like to take up some designing classes, I would like to pursue in interior designing and then... creating some small unique stuffs.
So cute that I can't live without it =D


I could foresee myself being so busy and occupied okay! Teehee!!





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Just when I am feeling I have gain some fighting spirit to "pia" in work.
Here comes the CNY!
Yoodddoooo!! A pail of cold water being poured!


Everytime I enter UPM, I feel... special.
Just so you know, Mr. E studies there.
I have always imagined that I could attend his big day in that particular place.
I am always amazed with the area of the Uni, after UM.
But now, I am no longer mesmerized with UM.
I am like, I will be there averagely one day weekly okay!


The hallucination of cheering in UPM would not be coming true.
No worries Mr. E, it's alright. Cheers okay! =D




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Speaking of which, it is already the New Year!
So how was your achievement in 2013?
New year resolution?
Well, you need to have some resolutions each year that you are keen to achieve in.
Your hard work, your effort? Will be seen even though you have not speak/yell about it.
Mine?


1. Secret
2. Secret
3. Secret
4. Travel to another Country for the year! *How lucky that Mr. E got to visit 2 different countries last year, UK and Australia. Damn!*
5. I want to get myself a memorable present on my Birthday! Because I didn't get myself one precious one in 2013.



Yay! Cheers for CNY!
Cheers for holidays! =D


Wish everyone in the pink of health and everything nice and smooth throughout the year of the horsey!
Good luck!





:: regards::



RAe



PS: Katy Perry - In another life, I would be your girl