Decision making can really be a pain in the ass.
Here I am in a position whereby I have to start deciding on what to choose/do.
What do I really want or need?
Sometimes what you think you want might not be what you really want in the end.
I really wish that I do not have to think or to make any decision.
But, I can't keep myself calm when I do have a conclusion myself.
That's torturing. Plain torturing.
I wish whereby someday my brain could just stop functioning.
Hell Life. Hola!
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Well basically I enjoy spending time in Pharmacy.
It feels great to be back in the medicinal world, seeing people, different kind of people, knowing how life is for some people, knowing what's seriously happening in the world outside.
Kids. They are fun.
One particular kid just made my day today. And it feels great.
But I cannot imagine having my own kid. That would be torturing!
I mean, one day two days with them would be fun.
You want me to be like, 24/7 with them?
They can really scare the hell out of me.
Not to say scare.
But to actually, torture me, like literally.
LOL. I sound evil. But for sure, I love children. =D
It feels great when the kid I spent time with today can remember my name and birthday!
That feels..... AWESOME. =PP
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I don't want night life liao. Once in a while is okay.
But, not every night please.
That's torturing =((
I overspent this two months. Double of what I should be spending. =((
I'm a pain in the ass..
And I do not feel right, right now.
That's torturing!!! T.T
I need to rant!
:: regards ::
Rae
ps: Love sent from peninsula to the east of Msia. Please take real good care of yourself. I'll see you when I see you =))
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Grieving
Grieving?
For some day some time later, it'll all come to an end.
Went to Old time neighbor's daughter's wedding dinner last night.
It was kinda... bored and odd.
The only thing I can do during such an odd and boring place is, sms-ing and playing games.
What that have came to my realization is that,
parents are definitely irreplaceable.
They willing to just do anything for you.
They're sad when you're sad.
They're happy when you're happy.
Or should I say...
They are more than happy when you're happy.
They are more than sad when you're sad.
Everyone has their own problems.
The one whom we can share our own problems and then come out to a conclusion or solution together is the one we can consider as the soul mate.
When you love someone, you have to accept each and every part of them as if they're yours.
* This was composed on last Sunday, too bad that I did not have enough time so I left everything hanging till now.
I have actually come to a realization.
A realization whereby, each individual is unique and they have different mindset.
WE have to learn and try to accept views from other people.
A tree must somehow learn how to tilt to the direction of sunlight in order to grow.
We can't just go straight all the while, standing still.
That's, LIFE.
Meeting different people each day makes you grow.
Meeting the same people each day makes you grow as well.
There are things that are not always within our control.
We just have to learn to accept them for who they are.
Its hard. But, that's the reality of it.
I'm starting and trying something new now.
Why stay in the comfort zone? Plainly because its comfortable.
But, the sad part of it is that you will never grow when you continue staying in your comfort zone.
Sad. But. True.
Learn how to love yourself before you even start to love others.
You don't know how to love others if you do not know how to love yourself .
There is some realization.
Its something positive.
Which is good.
At least I have a target now. =)
Socializing is hard.
And I'm learning.
I hope its not too late.
I hope.
Have been sleeping late, waking up late lately.
Its DIFFERENT.
Very much different.
Till then, toodles!
:: regards ::
Rae
ps: You know what you want in life =) You create your own luck!
For some day some time later, it'll all come to an end.
Went to Old time neighbor's daughter's wedding dinner last night.
It was kinda... bored and odd.
The only thing I can do during such an odd and boring place is, sms-ing and playing games.
What that have came to my realization is that,
parents are definitely irreplaceable.
They willing to just do anything for you.
They're sad when you're sad.
They're happy when you're happy.
Or should I say...
They are more than happy when you're happy.
They are more than sad when you're sad.
Everyone has their own problems.
The one whom we can share our own problems and then come out to a conclusion or solution together is the one we can consider as the soul mate.
When you love someone, you have to accept each and every part of them as if they're yours.
* This was composed on last Sunday, too bad that I did not have enough time so I left everything hanging till now.
I have actually come to a realization.
A realization whereby, each individual is unique and they have different mindset.
WE have to learn and try to accept views from other people.
A tree must somehow learn how to tilt to the direction of sunlight in order to grow.
We can't just go straight all the while, standing still.
That's, LIFE.
Meeting different people each day makes you grow.
Meeting the same people each day makes you grow as well.
There are things that are not always within our control.
We just have to learn to accept them for who they are.
Its hard. But, that's the reality of it.
I'm starting and trying something new now.
Why stay in the comfort zone? Plainly because its comfortable.
But, the sad part of it is that you will never grow when you continue staying in your comfort zone.
Sad. But. True.
Learn how to love yourself before you even start to love others.
You don't know how to love others if you do not know how to love yourself .
There is some realization.
Its something positive.
Which is good.
At least I have a target now. =)
Socializing is hard.
And I'm learning.
I hope its not too late.
I hope.
Have been sleeping late, waking up late lately.
Its DIFFERENT.
Very much different.
Till then, toodles!
:: regards ::
Rae
ps: You know what you want in life =) You create your own luck!
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Ironically
Its pretty irony how stupid human can be.
Really stupid.
Human likes having new things in life, and then go through the process of enjoying it, getting tired of it, getting bored of it, then see new things, then we go for it again.
Repeating the process all over again.
Com'on, life's too short to keep spending time to go through everything over and over again.
Get a life maybe?
This is just pretty irony.
Freshness is good. New is good.
But, what's the point?
Proud that you are eating different interesting food each day?
There will be a day where you'll be forced to stop eating different interesting food.
That's sad.
But, that's just how life is.
Unless, you do not wish to settle down.
Who doesn't want to settle down?
I mean, you'll get bored with the process one day for sure.
Its just the matter of time.
Don't you feel you're pathetic for not having the right one all the time?
Alright. Last night was a crazy night.
Just plain crazy.
I feel girls' power once again.
I HAVE NOT FELT IT FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME!!!
And I feel, GREAT! xD
:: regards ::
Rae
ps: Get a life human. Get a life!
Friday, October 5, 2012
Who YOU Are?
I have been spending much time on socializing and its slowly getting on my nerves.
Everything is part of life.
It only depends on whether you want to live it or to ignore it.
To make your life miserable or happy.
There are too much in life that you can live without.
Be it something tangible or intangible, there is something.
People are but humans.
Keep this in mind.
There are good and bad people in life.
They come and go, molding you into someone better/worst, strictly depending on how you view the whole scenario.
For whatever it is, embrace them with a pair of open arms.
Life is too short to be stubborn about.
C'est La Vie.
The more I see, the more I learn.
Life is mainly about learning.
Be it young or old, you're learning each and every single time.
What can I say now is, it's time to be flexible =)
With lots of love throughout, you're too young to be putting yourself into an no-turning-back corner.
Love is in the air people.
:: regards ::
RAe
Everything is part of life.
It only depends on whether you want to live it or to ignore it.
To make your life miserable or happy.
There are too much in life that you can live without.
Be it something tangible or intangible, there is something.
People are but humans.
Keep this in mind.
There are good and bad people in life.
They come and go, molding you into someone better/worst, strictly depending on how you view the whole scenario.
For whatever it is, embrace them with a pair of open arms.
Life is too short to be stubborn about.
C'est La Vie.
The more I see, the more I learn.
Life is mainly about learning.
Be it young or old, you're learning each and every single time.
What can I say now is, it's time to be flexible =)
With lots of love throughout, you're too young to be putting yourself into an no-turning-back corner.
Love is in the air people.
:: regards ::
RAe
Thursday, October 4, 2012
True Colors?
Deep down inside, "Don't you think that you should be responsible towards me?"
The ironic part of life is,
Words are worthless.
People can just say anything they want.
Without having to pay or to responsible for it.
How pathetic and how weak can words be?
Let this awesome song do the talking further kay? =)
Practically, I have slept for the whole day.
Sleep God just managed to enter me I think.
So tired and sleepy that I could hardly even open my eyes to reply messages.
Past are meant to be past.
Never look back at it?
No, that doesn't apply on me.
I will always look back to improve myself further.
The same thing should not happen twice.
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me.
What's next? Life goes on.
Jerks exist.
In every single corner.
Trust? They could be shattered till the extend that they never exist.
Responsibility? They are to be swallowed and then what? What's that?
Get a life. Be a Real Man.
Proper explanation? There will never be one.
Real man doesn't hide. They FACE it. They do not IGNORE it.
Suck it all up and make it till the end!
:: regards ::
RAe
The ironic part of life is,
Words are worthless.
People can just say anything they want.
Without having to pay or to responsible for it.
How pathetic and how weak can words be?
Let this awesome song do the talking further kay? =)
Practically, I have slept for the whole day.
Sleep God just managed to enter me I think.
So tired and sleepy that I could hardly even open my eyes to reply messages.
Past are meant to be past.
Never look back at it?
No, that doesn't apply on me.
I will always look back to improve myself further.
The same thing should not happen twice.
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me.
What's next? Life goes on.
Jerks exist.
In every single corner.
Trust? They could be shattered till the extend that they never exist.
Responsibility? They are to be swallowed and then what? What's that?
Get a life. Be a Real Man.
Proper explanation? There will never be one.
Real man doesn't hide. They FACE it. They do not IGNORE it.
Suck it all up and make it till the end!
:: regards ::
RAe
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
太阳底下
就在太阳底下, 我们都被照射.
爱情不是一切.
经不起考验的爱情, 你稀罕吗?
人, 活得快乐, 自在, 负责任, 面对问题, 不逃避, 做事对得起人, 对得起自己, 决定了绝不后悔..
你, 生活就会变得很有意义! 活得值得!
过去的三年，我过的很美好，不后悔，不后退．
就这么一瞬间，我觉得我长大了．
所谓的经一事，长一智
我明白了．
这个结局，虽然是残酷的，不是我想要的，
也有点假，不可思议．
可是，这就是人心．多么的现实．．
我，会把它们都＂吞＂了．
我之前还很不甘愿，明明属于我的，她怎么就可以这样的把它们都抢走．
我的幸福，就这么的被牺牲．
我的回忆，就这么的被摧毁．
我的所有，就这么的在一瞬间不见了．
消失得无影无踪．
当初，我还在怪上天，怎么会让这么一个这样的女人给夺走了．
心里种种的不甘愿，不甘心．
可我，又能做什么呢？又能怎样？
男人，说变就变．
怎么就不会学着知足呢？
外面的世界这么大，更好的，更美的，更特别的，一大堆．
那，你就一直不停的寻找吗？
竟然锁定了，为什么让自己动摇？
我不会这样单纯了．
女人有了本事，你们男人想怎样就怎样．
没有你们，我们的生活一样很精彩．
精不精彩，就只在于你如何去看待你所拥有的这一切．
爱情不是面包，填不饱肚子的 =)
我有能力和你在一起，我就有能力把你放下．
这一切，就在于我要或不要而已．
自己的能力，自己清楚．．．
我有能力放得下你，我也有能力，原谅你的所有．
你所说的谎言，一大堆．
可是，我还是想听你亲口告诉我．
因为我，还是想相信我自己没看错人．
可这又怎样？没说和有说也没分别．
你的事，从此与我无关．
我所该知道的，不知道的，我都知道．
这就在于，我要不要相信而已．
生活一样还是得过的！
I'm slowly getting myself whole again.
From this time around, I do not need anyone else to make me whole again.
Plainly because, having me myself is more than enough =)
Jeng Jeng.
Proudly saying, I'm Rachel Ngiam Wei Lee =)
:: regards ::
Rae
ps: Do appreciate life and people around you before its too late! you do not want the regrets! =D
爱情不是一切.
经不起考验的爱情, 你稀罕吗?
人, 活得快乐, 自在, 负责任, 面对问题, 不逃避, 做事对得起人, 对得起自己, 决定了绝不后悔..
你, 生活就会变得很有意义! 活得值得!
过去的三年，我过的很美好，不后悔，不后退．
就这么一瞬间，我觉得我长大了．
所谓的经一事，长一智
我明白了．
这个结局，虽然是残酷的，不是我想要的，
也有点假，不可思议．
可是，这就是人心．多么的现实．．
我，会把它们都＂吞＂了．
我之前还很不甘愿，明明属于我的，她怎么就可以这样的把它们都抢走．
我的幸福，就这么的被牺牲．
我的回忆，就这么的被摧毁．
我的所有，就这么的在一瞬间不见了．
消失得无影无踪．
当初，我还在怪上天，怎么会让这么一个这样的女人给夺走了．
心里种种的不甘愿，不甘心．
可我，又能做什么呢？又能怎样？
男人，说变就变．
怎么就不会学着知足呢？
外面的世界这么大，更好的，更美的，更特别的，一大堆．
那，你就一直不停的寻找吗？
竟然锁定了，为什么让自己动摇？
我不会这样单纯了．
女人有了本事，你们男人想怎样就怎样．
没有你们，我们的生活一样很精彩．
精不精彩，就只在于你如何去看待你所拥有的这一切．
爱情不是面包，填不饱肚子的 =)
我有能力和你在一起，我就有能力把你放下．
这一切，就在于我要或不要而已．
自己的能力，自己清楚．．．
我有能力放得下你，我也有能力，原谅你的所有．
你所说的谎言，一大堆．
可是，我还是想听你亲口告诉我．
因为我，还是想相信我自己没看错人．
可这又怎样？没说和有说也没分别．
你的事，从此与我无关．
我所该知道的，不知道的，我都知道．
这就在于，我要不要相信而已．
生活一样还是得过的！
I'm slowly getting myself whole again.
From this time around, I do not need anyone else to make me whole again.
Plainly because, having me myself is more than enough =)
Jeng Jeng.
Proudly saying, I'm Rachel Ngiam Wei Lee =)
:: regards ::
Rae
ps: Do appreciate life and people around you before its too late! you do not want the regrets! =D
Monday, October 1, 2012
The First of October
Loha people.
This is Rachel Ngiam, whereby I will be back to blogging.
Abandoning the previous blog and then start a new one.
Life for the past three years have been great.
They will be missed and be remembered.
I don't see any point saying that they were a disaster.
Well, basically I am back to the square one once again.
I am now single, but not available.
I have been missing much about life.
There's both good and bad, strictly depends on how you see it.
Attended a seminar yesterday, and seriously, I'm highly motivated. =D
I hope the motivation prolongs, I do not want to miss that.
It would be such a big waste!
There must be a reason for this breakup to happen.
Be it good or bad, hmmm.
I do not know.
Bad is whereby I'm used to it and I just missed out my Mr. Right which was not that right afterall?
Good is whereby I can open up myself again.
I closed myself up for the past years.
I wasn't dare to do a lot of stuffs, to meet a lot of people, to listen to different things which are happening around. I thought those things were the right thing to do.
I might not be that right it seems.
What I'm gaining now is more than my expectations.
I have been spending much time talking around with many different people.
Hmmm, they are all so good to me.
So good to be true, just like how the relationship was.
Its over and never shall I look back.
Its called a breakup because its broken.
I know, I'm not just convincing myself. I hope.
But this is my true feeling for now.
Thank you for the existence of all the beautiful people.
The world is not that grey after all. =)
I might have lose the "eternal" happiness which I thought to be forever.
But I gained so much more than that for now.
He was rather a disappointment.
I will gain back my true self.
Not now, but one day. =)
:: regards ::
Rae
ps: thanks for the concern people. =D
This is Rachel Ngiam, whereby I will be back to blogging.
Abandoning the previous blog and then start a new one.
Life for the past three years have been great.
They will be missed and be remembered.
I don't see any point saying that they were a disaster.
Well, basically I am back to the square one once again.
I am now single, but not available.
I have been missing much about life.
There's both good and bad, strictly depends on how you see it.
Attended a seminar yesterday, and seriously, I'm highly motivated. =D
I hope the motivation prolongs, I do not want to miss that.
It would be such a big waste!
There must be a reason for this breakup to happen.
Be it good or bad, hmmm.
I do not know.
Bad is whereby I'm used to it and I just missed out my Mr. Right which was not that right afterall?
Good is whereby I can open up myself again.
I closed myself up for the past years.
I wasn't dare to do a lot of stuffs, to meet a lot of people, to listen to different things which are happening around. I thought those things were the right thing to do.
I might not be that right it seems.
What I'm gaining now is more than my expectations.
I have been spending much time talking around with many different people.
Hmmm, they are all so good to me.
So good to be true, just like how the relationship was.
Its over and never shall I look back.
Its called a breakup because its broken.
I know, I'm not just convincing myself. I hope.
But this is my true feeling for now.
Thank you for the existence of all the beautiful people.
The world is not that grey after all. =)
I might have lose the "eternal" happiness which I thought to be forever.
But I gained so much more than that for now.
He was rather a disappointment.
I will gain back my true self.
Not now, but one day. =)
:: regards ::
Rae
ps: thanks for the concern people. =D
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