The Uncertainties

One problem with me is that, I always have a mindset.
I always pre-set my mind into fear before "something" bad really happen.
Some people says that I worry for the unexpected, which is "unnecessary".
Where else some people claim it to be "expecting the unexpected".


For me is that, its good to expect. But it's bad to worry for the unexpected.
But, honestly, I can't help but to be worried.
Is there a right for me not to worry?
Seriously, I do not think I have the "honor" to not to worry.


Once again, I feel afraid with the upcoming roads ahead.
I used to have things planned.
Very well planned.

I wanna do this by
20
25
30
32
I wanna go here go there by this this this and that.
I wanna have this by this this this and that.

I was very proud with my achievements at the age of 18, 21 and then now, 23.


Seriously, that wasn't my problem.
But it seemed to be that I am being drown by those problems.
It feels scary and devastating to be starting from negative instead of zero.


I feel guilty that I could not act as if nothing is happening cause seriously, that's what that is happening.
And seriously, I want to have a certain, a stable, an affirmative road ahead.
It feels like living in the darkness.
Seriously.









This is definitely what I am feeling now.
I wish that I have the ability to settle it all at one go!
Seriously!
I don't wanna be living in fear.
The feeling sucks.



How long can I bear with it more?
It'll always be difficult and unwilling to let go.
But, can I really handle it for another year or so?
Even if I give it a year, would it be settled?
I do not wish it to be a never ending story... It hurts..



就让离开躺下句点....?




:: regards ::




rAe




PS: Just go away!

The Life

This song has always been mesmerizing, but I didn't know that it could be "that" mesmerizing till I heard it live.
I practically teared when I heard Eason Chen started singing this particular song.
It was so touching! I was being touched so badly!
Yes, the misses that you'll get when you're apart or yada yada something like that.
Honestly, I had no idea how it got straight into my heart, the soul probably.
Well, IT JUST DID.

And so, I got this tickets from a friend. 

Yeah. The most expensive seats.

Good vision and stuff. 

I know, I'm very lucky indeed.

To best honest, I do think that I am very fortunate to have these beautiful people existing in my life. 

And of course, this applies to the firm that I'm currently working at.

They are beautiful, very nice people. 

Yours truly. 

FYI, I am never a super fan for him. 

I hear his songs of course. 

But I never play his songs myself. 

I heard from the Utarians and WenYao, I also heard from the ex.

It appeared to me that he was a super fan for him. 

There are a few songs that he particularly loves them for. 

And now, Mr. E is another super fan for Eason Chen.

Oh gawd.

But you know what? 

The feeling of hearing all the amazing songs from Eason with Mr. E, IT WAS MESMERIZING. =)

Us getting "crazy".

The bad news about the concert was, IT RAINED.

The good news? 

IT RAINED. 

Hahahah! 

Does it rhymes? Hmmm.

Well, I enjoyed much in the rain. 

I hope, WE enjoyed =)

Thankfully, I had these! 

Teehee! =D

We saw him clearly from our seats. 

The seats was awesome. 

At the price of zero,

We are enjoying the benefit of Hero.

Yeah! =P

Thank you very much to the Madam who done this for me, for us. 

I love you.

I love us. 

Sounds familiar? 

Heck yeah. 

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I personally think this is cute! 

Don't you think so? 

I have been pretty much occupied. 

Very glad that I'm making full use of the time I have. 

No longer slacking much, doing nothing.

Of course, I still slack, but when I do, I slack for a pretty good reason! =)

I'm back on track with English Series! 

A lot more to catch up with! 

Hell yeah! YeeHaw! =D

:: Regards :::

RAE

PS : I am glad that I actually attended the concert. Somemore please! =))

PSS : Me want vacations! =|

The Heart

Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
I have always been a fan of Taylor's.
I have all of her songs in the playlist.

One of my colleagues asked me for her songs today.
Yeah! I manage to infect another person to fall in love with Taylor.
Her songs are truly amazing! Isn't it? =)





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I've pretty occupied recently.
Many events/seminars on going with the company.
Up next, LabAsia!
It'll definitely be my first time in the event.
Seriously, I like having seminars or events.
I can learn at the same time expand my social network.
For sure, I'm intending to expand my networking.
It's something pretty fun!
And honestly, I would like to have some recognition in the market that I'm emerged in now. =D





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2/10/2013


My first time witnessing fireworks competition in Malaysia.
What's even better is that it's the fireworks produced by the country I admire the most.
Dubai.

With this, I recalled telling my ex that my dream country would be Dubai.

Burj Khalifa

It is still my dream to be able to witness the building Burj Khalifa with my own naked eyes. 

How truly amazing building! 

Mesmerizing! 

Don't you just love UAE??! 

This is the Ferrari World in Abu Dhabi.

Besides, there's one beach in UAE with many many colorful flags on the beach. 

But sadly, I couldn't get to find the pictures of the beach. 

I don't know what is it called as well. 

Sigh. 

I would love to take pictures in the beautiful colorful flags-beach with the white on! 

Herh. I could imagine myself taking photographs with wedding gowns but I could not imagine myself getting married. 

That would be - Mesmerizing! LOL! 

Let's play by the ear then! =D 

Time's up for today. 

I'm tired! 

:: regards ::

Rae

PS: Sadly, I don't think the fireworks last night was good. Probably I expected a lil too much! =\