The Big Day

With the big title and the video title, you think that I'm getting in white?


Nah, it's just that, again, I listen to the YouTube mix while working on my spreadsheets.
This song got my attention again. =)


The Canon in D part, the rhythm, Shane's voice, everything blends in so well and nice =)

As long as I live, I love you

People around me have been talking about relationship, marriage and stuffs.
My utarians and colleagues.


Different people do have different perceptions about marriage.
My concept about marriage is very much different from the previous years.
But, with Jim mentioning about pre-wedding photoshoots that day in Instanbul, it does attracts me a little.

Be amazed with Istanbul, Jim's choice =)

My pick =D 

I have always been admiring this. All of my life. 

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Well, I had a very packed weekend.
Busy with movie, shopping, convocation, and makan trip with my family.

I'm glad that Mr. E could blend along.
Thank you Mr. E for all the effort paid.
I appreciate them loads.

You really did made me a happy happy girl Mr. E.

Thank you very much! =) 

Thank you Lil Stitch for have been through all the ups and downs together with me when my tiger was away! =D

You're definitely one such awesome person on Earth, things will be better for the both of us. 

Oh ya! I thank God for that I managed to get the tickets to see Nick Vujicic. 

He's one such amazing person!

I can't wait to be inspired by him. 

More surprises coming up ahead.

All you have to do is just gear up yourself and be prepared to accept the challenges ahead with opened arms. 

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I'm glad enough to say that I am now one step closer to my colleagues and that I have less hesitation towards what I am heading to. 

Thank you for the love and patience showered willingly. 

Thank you! 

I'm truly blessed! 

All you have to do each day before sleep is to be thankful!! =D

Have an awesome weekend ahead peeps! 

Life's too short to mourn about! 

:: regards ::

RAe

PS: I love being me! =D 

The Dream Maker

Mr. E's favourite?

Relationship talks about cross influence.
LAdadidadadi.


Have you ever...
Have you ever....?

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?


It's August!!
And that I'm getting my third salary soon!
Oh my God. Time really flies.
It flies so fast that I couldn't even get myself armed for the upcoming battle ahead.


Oooppsss! Do I have a battle?
Erm. Yes and No.
I don't really have a battleground that I need to face them all alone.
Plus, the battle that I would be facing will definitely push me through my limits and Hola!
New limits!


Daw...




Talking about battleground.
I watched "Unbeatable" already.
The sound of silence is definitely a very great soundtrack.
So great that it is able to implant so many thoughtful ideas into your head and to have some nostalgic moments.
It brought me back to old times, looking through the things that have been done.



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It's my convocation day tomorrow, 24th August 2013.
I can finally get to meet up with my fellow friends!
Awww I miss them so much.



I remember that I used to say that my uni friends are not "my friends".
They are so far apart from me.
And that we have different mindset.
But, I am glad to have found a bunch of young minds that are so thoughtful and smart!
They are definitely a bunch of friends to die for!
What's with the description?


HAHAHAHA.



Oh ya, I had buffet lunch with a very very old friend few days ago.
Ms.Khoo.
Well, things are never the same ever since the breakup between me and the second Ex.
We used to be the trio, I never have to fake in front them.
I can just be myself.
Of course, I was so different when I was still in a relationship with him.
And now, when I am no longer with him, Ms. Khoo claimed that I'm very different.
Have I been the real me when I was with him?
Or is it now the real me?


Between the two of us, me and Ms. Khoo, we have not been seeing each others so often as before.
Many reasons why.
I have my busy schedule and dating schedule, she has hers as well.
So yeah, eventually.
Even though that we seldom talk or chat over the phone now and then, we can still talk comfortably when we're together.
Again, I gossiped last few days when we were talking.
HAHAHAH.



Of course I felt so bad for being bad mouthed about others.
But that's why I do for "living". LOL.


Ignore me okay. =P





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AAaahhhh....!! I am so happy that I have free Imax 2D tickets for Elysium for tonight!
Couple seat some more!
Wooohoooo!

Yeehaaaw!!!

I am so thrilled.
I get very happy these days.
I got free Baskin Robbins Lava Ice Cream from colleague yesterday.
I got free BurgerLab lunch from boss on the day before.
And now I got free movie tickets for tonight.
Awww... Don't I love being me? =DD




Mr. E, I want unicorn for convo!!
Unicorn unicorn!




Gonna hunt for new shoes for convo tomorrow.
I'm such a last minute person. =O

Have a great weekend ahead kay! =)





:: regards ::





RAe

The Life Companion

Hello people.
How are you doing?


Well, I was supposed to have a joyous weekend.
But things didn't turn out to be quite well.
And so I woke up earlier than the weekdays, with only one thing in my head "I'm meeting up with the gang"!
Damn.
I was so elated.
Collected the robe which is the main course of the day.
Then went for a coffee break in a unique coffee shop Butter Beans in a completed inconspicuous area.
I usually call it "abandoned" site.
Ya right.


And just so when you think that things are going on well and fine.
It just not.
Firstly, Cheong Hing lost his RM 1K somehow.
Then when I was on my way heading to Damansara, I got into an accident.


You know what?
I freaked out.
I totally were.
I remember very well that I shouted in the car.
I was completely lost.
But I thank God for that my friends were in the car behind me.
They helped me through the thick and thin.
Immediately I called Mr. E.
I was actually pondering onto calling him as he was actually on his way to Genting.
Uuuuggggghhh!!


I couldn't call mum. I don't want her to sit there worrying and not being able to come to me.
You know, the feeling of wanting to help so bad, in the sense of spiritually but the fact is that you're not in the position to do that. How? Die lorh.
Hell yeah.
Well no.
What talking I?



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Well, things were so messed up and I couldn't get myself straight.
Last few days were a complete pain in the arse.
I couldn't sleep well and I get migraine like what the hell. =.="



Fortunate enough that there is some agent that is running through the case for me.
And Thank God that that fella got summon.
I was so worried till I got my nerves up the wall.
And Thank God that my uncle has an extra car that could lend to me.



During the night when I was driving the car home,
FYI I was literally shivering.
I was so stress driving that car.
Once again, I experienced the peacefulness while driving home alone.
Just like the day that incident happened whereby I started enjoying driving alone in the dark lonely night on the cold callous highway.


And then an awesome meaningful song was played on the radio.




The familiar voice that manage to "touch" me all the time.



Oh damn!!!
I do admit that there are some difference in me these days.
Sometimes I do love to put on the ear plugs and then listen to songs that are so meaningful.



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It's the beginning of my career path and I have to really start to do some thinking.
People, it's not that I like to think alot and then put myself into bad mood.
Sometimes I really don't know how not to think.
I know, the adults been through the adulthood and they felt that its a waste that they hadn't done what they should have done which led them to a tough and wavy road.
I understand their motives that they would like to advice me in the early stage so that I could do better than them, and have a brighter future with less bumpy roads.
I do appreciate them.
A lot. A lot more than you could imagine.




Question: Do you ever think about the future? What do you see? Could you amplify what/where you see yourself in the near future? Let's say in 5?









:: regards ::



Rae




PS: I'm more than just me.

The Escapade

Hello people!
Ignore the title. It's not a reckless adventure.
Not even close.
I just feel like using that word I don't know why. =P



Well, I went to Singapore over the weekend.
It was pretty enjoyable by the way =)


3day2night was indeed too short just to cover Singapore alone.
I wonder how I got everything covered 6 years back?
Hmmm. Probably is that MBS wasn't there that time?


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I am kinda busy recently, which is the reason why I didn't blog.

At work, I'm busy with alot of stuffs.
I really want to do some work and get some work done.
Unfortunately no one is able to provide me the exact information.
How am I going to work when I am left hanging?


I'm feeling so helpless and yet there is no one that I could even refer to.
The HECK.
Who am I going to get things done then?
How is your company gonna gain profit when your man power isn't that strong weih?


Well. Things have finally came to an end.
I got my work done somehow.
Not perfectly.
But, I'm done with it.



And when I'm back at home, all I wanna do is just crap, Tv, crap, food, and end with some entertainments.
I feel tired socializing.
Have I chosen the right path of life?


I don't like having lunch with people I see in the office.
I see them in office.
See them again during break?
Walao.
Can ah?



I'm bored. I'm tired. I'm reckless. I'm everything bad. Duh~



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I have been listening to Westlife YouTube Mix at work recently.
Hell yeah. I'm busy but I still listen to musics during my work.


Still, I heart Westlife.
The voices that compliment each other so well as a group.








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Mr. E showed me a blog post last night.
It was about being hurry.


There's definitely some message that he wanted to bring up to.
I know.
I'm someone who is very impatient.
It's not that I like to rush things.
It's that I wanna finish things fast so that I could use some spare time after that to check things out.
To let it breathe.
Even wine also you would open it up for breathing for a while before you even taste it don't you?


I would really love to have some slow paced moment when I'm allowed to.
It's just that when you're living in the world now and that you're in your freaking 20s, don't you feel like wanting to get things completed and then to get more things completed when you're allowed to?
I could really use some space to breathe as well.
It's not that I don't want to.

Time and tide wait for no man. 

Looking back at times when I was having vacation at the beach or when I was in Australia, being all alone.
I could really have my own space, walking, breathing, doing everything at my own sweet pace.
Taking my own sweet time.
I do think that I wasted much time in Australia for that I could have visited much more places.
But somehow I'm glad cause I really did enjoyed much!


I do hope that there will be another time whereby I could do things slow without having much to think about.


7 more years to 30s.
Who the hell invented years actually.
Why do I have to be reminded?

Nothing and no one is rushing you.
It's your own age that is rushing you.


By the thought of being financially independent when you're 30s.
By the thought of being able to travel around when you're 40s.
By the thought of being able to spend time with your grandchildren when you're 50s.


All the "wants" are the things that are chasing after you.
Whether you like it or not, you'll be reminded, every now and then.
Hell yeah that's life.


What I'm thinking now is, when I'm currently at work during my recent years, it'll be great if I could visit any part of the world any now and then.
One country every half a year.
With that, I might not be able to be financially independent during my 30s, unless I'm earning a few buckets of gold, but I would be proud to say that I didn't spend my life doing nothing.
I earn to enjoy, to experience life.
It could be really amazing if I get to go UK for 2-3 months, travelling around, with budget of course.
Well, Dream would be Dream if you don't work to go for it.



Let's see how things go throughout the year.
Whether you like it or not, there are only 4 more months left to end the year.
I've done much this year.

I completed my Degree and I'm a Chemical Engineer.
And....



I'm employed!
2013 is definitely my transition year.

It's also the year that I got to met Mr. E and that we're together for like, almost 5 months! =)




So, how about you?







:: regards ::



Rae



PS: I heart you Mr. E despite the fact that we have very much different perspectives in life. There are so much more for us to learn, to explore, to love! =))


PSS: Everything will work as long as you have the "will"! Gambate!

The Departure

This Birdy definitely has unique voice. I heard this songs long time ago but I didn't bother to even Google.



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It's the first day of Raya!
Hello Vacations!
Firstly, today doesn't feel like a Thursday for me.
It feels like a Saturday.
Just that the Saturday is a very very long Saturday and so you can have a prolong-ed weekend.
And then Sunday and then hello bluish Monday (I feel like writing mundane actually). =P



I spent the previous night having with Mr. E's colleagues.
Ended up in the K-room and then as usual, I yell.
Well, I only managed to yell like 40% for God's sake.
I was afraid to scare the hell out of the folks.

The only thing that was on my mind that time was, I wish I could be with my sampat gang.
Having our Gaga concert of our own.
Singing songs like Born This Way, Zombie, A Moment Like This to oldies like Yesterday Once More.
The Jackie Cheung, Andy Lau, Stefanie Sun and Lady Gaga's concert.
Just the thought of it can make me drools. *yums*

Where else can I find sampat people like that?
I miss you utarians!



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The first getaway with the girls in less than 12 hours.
I'm worried actually.
Girls with emotions on board = Girls on fire.
I can't imagine what's gonna happen.
Out of my way to control.
I just hope that things gonna turn out to be fine.
I just want to have a happy memorable trip.


No matter what, I'm meeting WeiHao KorKor and WanChin! Yay! =D


I want a happy trip like this:

Nothing else more than just me, Mr. E, my Kipling monkey and strawberries. 

Redness! Happiness! Laughter! =D 

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Looking at pictures of others that they manage to travel all around the world makes me jealous at times. 

I don't blame anyone that I'm not able to do that now.

It's just plain jealous. 

I do appreciate very much that I'm getting much more than some people. 

So much more that I couldn't ask for more anymore. 

But I promise myself that I'm gonna give myself and my family much more. 

No hanky panky. I'll try my best. 

I'm giving myself 1-2 years time to hanky panky to take my own sweet time and then nothing else and just slack. 

But, I do have a vision that the 1-2 years is somehow gonna extend. 

Plain Rachel Ngiam. 

Super in love with pushing things to its limits. 

Come on, you only live once! 

WAIT! You don't live once! You live everyday! You only die once! 

HAHAHHAHA!

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Never stop appreciating =)

Wish me luck and that I have a fruitful wondrous trip kay? =D

I hope that you will have a pleasant holiday as well! =)

:: regards ::

Rae

PS: I'm gonna miss you Mr. E =*

The Thrill

Can you feel my love?



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Why Malaysia doesn't have these kinds of mini concerts whereby we can be close to the artists?

Can someone actually tell me why I already spent 3k for the month ah?
I'm so effin broke man..! =.="


Such a bless that there's only 3 working days for the week!
And gladly, today is the last working day of the week already! Teehee! =D


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A strong, healthy relationship can be one of the best supports in your life. Good relationships improve all aspects of your life... strengthening your health, body, soul and your connections with others.

But, a relationship that isn't working can be a tremendous drain as well.
Relationship is another type of investment in life..
The more you put in, the more you can get back.
So, please do play your part well.
You might just get a healthy fruitful future! =P


This is what I read from a random article. I find it quite reasonable thou!
There you go!



What makes a healthy relationship?

• Staying involved with each other. Some relationships get stuck in peaceful coexistence, but without truly relating to each other and working together. While it may seem stable on the surface, lack of involvement and communication increases distance. When you need to talk about something important, the connection and understanding may no longer be there.
• Getting through conflict. Some couples talk things out quietly, while others may raise their voices and passionately disagree. The key in a strong relationship, though, is not to be fearful of conflict. You need to be safe to express things that bother you without fear of retaliation, and be able to resolve conflict without humiliation, degradation or insisting on being right. 
• Keeping outside relationships and interests alive. No one person can meet all of our needs, and expecting too much from someone can put a lot of unhealthy pressure on a relationship. Having friends and outside interests not only strengthens your social network, but brings new insights and stimulation to the relationship, too.
• Communicating. Honest, direct communication is a key part of any relationship. When both people feel comfortable expressing their needs, fears, and desires, trust and bonds are strengthened. Nonverbal cues—body language like eye contact, leaning forward or away, or touching someone’s arm—are critical to communication.

Okay. I practically kopi pasta everything! =P


Other than these, you have got to...

1. Keep physical intimacy alive.
2. Spend quality time together.
3. Never stop communicating.
4. Give and take.
5. Expects ups and downs.



Seeing the first one makes me go cuckoo actually.
I remember when the ex told me that he was in love with another girl, he refused to even touch me.
That feels pretty awful and yes, that feeling haunt me till recent days.


Seriously, the different sexes do see things differently.


I am pretty sensitive.
How?
How to get over it?

3 hours to liberty!!! 

In fact, less than that. 

Around 1 hour to liberty! Deducting the super slow paced lunch. 

Hmmm. Basically that's it! 

Hoola!!! 

Enjoy your weekend guys! 

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Mr. E asked if I wanna follow him goes back to his hometown last night. 

Don't know why, I took it as a joke. 

He was practically joking I guess. He joked about it before. 

Well, my perceptions. 

Time and tides wait for no man. 

But well, things might not happen now but eventually it will. 

Mr. E, spend some precious moments with your parents and I spend the days young with my girls okay? 

I do hope that there will not be any arguments this time around.. 

Just enjoy what you are doing at that particular moments.

We can't always have the best of both worlds. 

C'est La Vie.

:: Regards ::

Rae

PS: Girls just wanna have fun! 

The Moment

Adele has always been my favourite.
I love her songs.
She is even the one who tied the knot between me and Mr. E I would say.
I do think that songs always tie up the knots between 2 people.
I was sharing songs to Mr. E when we were friends.
There were quite a number of songs being exchanged.
But I remember "The One & Only" pretty well.
Not many people listen to Adele thou.


Besides Adele?
Taylor Swift! =PP



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Many things have happened previously.
I'm glad to say that things have finally receded to certain extends that I could breathe freely.
Without the need to gasp for fresh air.
Like a desperado..

For you I would cross every river.
I would sail every sea.
I would climb every mountain.
To be right where you are.
To be right beside you. 

Speaking of religion, do you think that a couple with different religious can get together?
For me, yes it will.
Provided that both are not keen onto influencing each other to embrace the particular religion.
Me? I'm a super free thinker.
I'm open up to any religion.
For me is that, every religion has their own beliefs.
It depends on which suits you the most and which is comfortable/suitable for you.

I'm not super banana-fied.
I'm not super bhuddist-mistic as well.
I'm good at nowhere.
Nothing.
YET, I'm glad to be just me.


It comforts me pretty well when a friend knows what that I'm lacking of or to say that what I'm not good at.
I do enjoy pretty much when some people just get lazy of explaining to me cause they know that I wouldn't understand even if they explain.
HAHAHA.
I seriously hate to use my brain.
I love to leave it at home letting it rot.
And then you get many many mushy mushrooms!


Talking about mushy mushy.
It reminds me of the Mossy Forest when I went to Cameron during my birthday.
It is commonly known as Gunung Brinchang.
First time going up to that high elevated area.
Just the 2 of us.
And the small windy roads.


Still I remember precisely what we said when we were on the way up.
Will we get robbed?
This is such a remote area.
What if there are assassins coming after us?
Alright. I added the last sentence in.
Cheers people! =D


After we went there only I got to know that the peak, is actually the highest peak in the peninsular Malaysia.
Fu-seh, proud sial.
I actually made it to the peak OKAY!
Not by foot la of course.
Thanks to the "Power to Surprise" =D




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Have you supported our local production?

I did! 

I've done my part. 

I don't really like the movie thou.

I watched it for the sake that Namewee didn't really have much time to promote for his movie and stuffs.

That's why I decided to watch it.

My kind of moral support so that the spirits of wanting to contribute to the society never dies! =D

I'm broke.

I'm so broke.

Just the thought that I would have to spend the weekend in Singapore makes me go haywire.

Singapore Dollar = Pain in the Arse.

Dang! 

When I went to Australia, the currency was at its highest peak.

When I wanna go Singapore this time around, its at the highest peak as well.

Dafuq? 

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My Mr. E! 

Aiyo, where to find so cute ones?!

Glad that I finally brought him to Setia Alam Night Market last Saturday! =)

Glad that he is one such MPK so that I can eat all the food that I like! 

Assam Laksa! =D

One thing that Mr. E can comforts me pretty well is that, he will say that "I finish for you" whenever I couldn't finish my food.

This comforts me pretty well I do not know why. 

But!!

This Mr. E likes to play wrestling so much I don't know why.

Now I have bruises all over my body! Damn! =.="

But still, I don't wanna learn Muay Thai to show him IN THE FACE! 

Plainly because I'm a super good person!! =P

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Time flies so quickly! 

2 more days to Singapore.

2 more weeks to meeting my allies in uni! 

3 more weeks to my convo! 

Damn I'm super duper broke! 

Alright.

Time's up for the day! 

Toodles! =D

:: regards ::

RAe

PS: Girls just wanna have fun! =) 

PSS: Never stop chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere. Just do what you want, what you feel like doing. Time and tide wait for no man.

PSSS: My baby Mousy, you're always on my mind =)

For The First Time

The first day of August!
I did something outrageous today!
Hahaha. Not really outrageous thou.
It's just that I actually drove all the UTP in Tronoh and then back to Klang.

I FEEL SO AMAZING!
But seriously,  I'm effin tired....
I just want to have someone to talk to.
To share the day.
Too bad I couldn't find one.
There are people that are available but I don't feel like seeing. Duh....
I messaged Mr. Eddie actually. Don't know why he would cross my mind... someone with the same range of mindset I guess?


I have a problem.
I have always have an expectation towards something.
But still I opt for miracles to happen that things don't always grow according to my expectations.
Then I always get disappointed whenever my expectations turn out to be fact.
How to comfort myself when I don't even want to?


Driving on the highway today flashed back some memories. The talking, driving, singing moments in the previous years.
Especially when you're listening to songs that ordinary people hardly listen to..
I always think that I'm odd and that luckily I found another odd person that I can share things with.
But well, those were histories.
You just have to accept the fact that you can never have the best of both worlds as the rhyme goes.


On the bended knees...


No doubt that the ex was a super bad person.
But I really appreciate that he really treated me well in the early years.
He knew that I didn't really get to travel around that's why he brought me to many places to open up my eyes.
During the journey when I was talking to my colleague about places, I realized that I have actually been to quite an amount of places..


I don't know whether it's right for me to have flashed back moments.
But things or memories do come into my mind..
Can someone really forget about the moments spent with someone who was once so close to you?
No flashing moments at all?
Yes? No?



想你的夜.. 多希望你能在我身边....
顶你的肺...


Your....
1. Dream
2. Career
3. Friends
4. Family
5. Partner


How would you arrange them in order? ?
Which comes first and which comes last?




:: regards ::



Rae



Ps: mum said don't argue la.. must be happy happy everyday mah...