The Big-O-Daddy

It has been quite some time ago since I didn't listen to mandarin songs. I was youtube-ing, and I saw Gary Chao's interview on the TV programmes recently. 

I was kind of.... Attracted. 

For your information, I was crazy catching up with "Dad! Where are you going?" 

It's a Chinese TV series based on original South Korean Reality show. 

Well, I was actually watching the Season 2 right away without catching up with the Season 1. 

Basically, no one in Season 1 attracts me besides Jimmy Lin.

OMG! He is such a talent. Singer cum Top 10 rally racer. 

True fact: He's so handsome he doesn't look like he's 40 odd at all! Ahah! 

Definitely, the TV series is highly recommended! 

So much more to learn from it even though it's for entertainment purposes. 

How successful are the Mom & Dad and how much effort they have spent in raising their kids. 

How much influence can the parents bring to children.

And you think raising a kid is as easy as getting pregnant then deliver and then feed them?

It's the process that matters. 

Someone as hot-tempered as Gary Chao turned out to be such a patient and loving dad. 

So that's the power of love I believe.

I never admire him to be honest. 

But I did listen to some of his hits. Years back.

Then, no news/sights of him already. 

Watching the TV series, looking his patience towards his kids. 

OMG. I swear I would have whack the kids to slumber already if I was in his position.

But what he did was really amazing. Truly inspiring. 

Alright, besides him. 

The next character I admire would be Feynman the little boy! 

So cute! 

It's funny how a 3-4 year old kid could understand his/her "mission" and complete the task accordingly. I guess, every kid could understand and do their own stuffs. 

It's just that the children these days are somehow rather so protected that they just ignored their own ability to learn or to even complete something on their own. 

I have always like kids. 

But I never thought to have them years ago....

I feel that its really difficult to raise a child with the economy these days.

Yada yada yada... I guess I'm just putting the blame on the economy whereby I'm the one who is unable to take up the responsibility to raise a kid and to encounter that kind of "pressure" that could literally bring you down to hell. Herh.

Enough of that, I went for something very entertaining yesterday.

It was a live show by several comedians.

Highlight of the show was Harith Iskander, the wellknown Malaysian Entertainer. 

Special guests were Dr Jason Leong (very young but entertaining newbie, award winning one okay!) and Papa CJ all the way from India.

Let's see if I could still remember some of the jokes, then I'll post it up tomorrow, hopefully, if the laziness doesn't take over me! =P

:: regards ::

RAe

PS: 15days to liberty! Can't wait! 

The Prayer

Could you feel the impact delivered by them?
Guide us with your grace...

So many things happening around.
My back is aching all the time!
I do need a massage... =|


Praying that things could sort out for me asap.
I do not wish to live the days with fear....

The suei-est things always come together at once.
Why la like that?


Everyone around me seems to have problem with the relationship or financially.
Worst still, it appears at the same pace!



I have to start thinking straight as to which is the priority in life already.
Do this or that?
This or that?

That or this?



Nah, I just want beach!!



:: regards ::


RAe



PS: 28 days to go! Gasping!

The Try-out

Every songs by Colbie Caillat are reminders...



The wedding dress

The whole world is getting married.

AHA! 

The first thing that pop out in my mind: SO EARLY?! ?

Nah, it's too mainstream. =P 

Some people can really spend over few hundred K's just to get married.

From the wedding dresses to the shoes. 

Then pre-weddings in overseas.

Then? 

Garden ROM.. Actual day.. Wedding dinner.. 

The photography.. videography.. 

Not to miss, the wedding ring? and the proposal ring? 

Aren't they supposed to be the same? 

Of course, the honeymoon, just before the honeymoon, the proposal! 

Some people don't even have the chance to fill up the stomach, 3 times a day. 

Worst still, some people are diagnosed with some diseases, causing difficulty to enjoy life, even worst, don't even have the ability to take care of themselves.

Could you simply understand how they feel? 

They tried so hard to be normal person... 

To eat normally and especially not to be dependent. 

Do they even have the option? 

It's so unfair... 

I know, you're definitely gonna mumble that yet, I go for holidays. 

The last trip was... 

Philippines in April. 

Eh no, Sabah.. But that wasn't overseas! 

Counting down to 2months from now!! 

I need A SUPER LONG BREAK.

Yeah. I definitely miss Aussie much.. 

Honestly, I am figuring if I could make it happen to migrate to Aussie. 

Probably stay with Nick when he has a house there. 

Then I could just be a parasite there? Hehehe.

Such a dreamer. 

I just wanna live I'm living. 

How would you define your life? 

Are you living when you're still breathing? 

What do you want in life? 

What would you want to achieve so that when you look back in your past, 

you would say: I can't believe I did that! Instead of, I wish I did that...! 

I'm still living in my comfort zone. 

Being able to stay at home for such a long time ever since I start working is splendid.

It's bless. 

Time to seek out for MORE in life.. 

Are you literally living?

:: regards ::

Rae

PS: 60 days to liberty! =D 

The Path

It's just another night
And I'm staring at the moon.
I saw a shooting star, and thought of you...





Could you see the way our horizons meet?
Be it the people around you, or the things/everything that are happening.
Are you enlighten that you should be appreciating the people and stuffs around you before everything is too late?


Do you think that, somehow rather, you deserve better?
Now, who doesn't want to have or own more things, better things in life?
Who doesn't want to be a Billionaire?




Can you see her fear?

If only being healthy is an option, who doesn't wanna be? 

Who would want to carry the oxygen tank whenever they go? 

Who would wanna be fighting with diseases when they could fight to have better livings? 

Perhaps, leaving to another planet together? 

There are too many uncertainties in life that would make you struggle. 

The attractions offered

The surroundings

The temptations

Could you stay firm to your ground, stick to what you wanted initially and move forward accordingly? 

:: regards ::

Rae

The Will

Everyone should be very well aware of the song above.
Don't you?

It must be a hell kind of truthfulness shown in the lyrics and adding up the lovely rhythm, everyone is in love with it.
Summing up that we are all the same kind of man.
Nobody else but human beings.


But still, variations instill in each and everyone of us.
Its just that we have a common ground for something.
Speaking of which, I can see many people around me wanted to go for some healthy food once in a while.
Then I realize how lucky for I am having healthy food almost everyday of my life!
And whenever I eat outside, I am only looking for unhealthy.


Damn hell of mentality.


There are certain people that gets very much contented with little things that happen.
Probably having a nice meal will make them thrill to the max.
Do you search for the kind of life whereby you continue doing the same thing for the next 20-30 years?
I wonder that could be me.


Well, get back to reality.
I don't have any burden for now even though I'm already 1 year in the society.
Time to really consider where its time for me to get a burden now... *yawn*



Time to go home!
Tomorrow holiday!
Yay!!!




Toodles!! =) Long weekend... Bliss =D





:: regards ::



RAe





PS : Hello cold weather! =D

The Dance

Lovers dance when they're falling in love.
I don't recall dancing with Mr. Ed before.
Does it mean that we're simply not in love with each other?


Seriously.
Everyone is tying the knot.
Don't you think that I want that too?

Duh. I already have my targeted age of marriage if you do know me well.
But that just not gonna happen.


Things happen for a reason.
Step out on your comfort zone.
You'll not grow if you stay put on the ground.


Up to date 11th June 2014, I've eaten a lot.
Many kinds of food.
Something that I do realize recently.
Something that I couldn't care less in the past.


The level of your life is strongly determined by the people you hanky panky around.
That you lingam around.


Speaking of which, I really wish to get some professional certs that could help me to put my feet in overseas.
Why limit yourself when there's so much more that you could do?


Perhaps, getting a vineyard/a barn and build yourself a villa and start managing on your vineyard/barn?
I'm a horsey!
Probably manage a horse yard and you might be surprised you could train/own a horse like The Secretariat?
The big red!



Dreams. Remain dreams.
I wonder when can I step out from all these and go over somewhere and be invisible for years.
I want to see aurora.
I want to see the peak.
I want to see Grand Canyon.
I want to see fishes but I don't wanna see Trigger fish. Asshole fish.


I want to go to those deserts and become a teacher for months over there!!



Girl with pea brain with big dreams. Ohhhmmm-nooomm--noooommms!


How about, owning a wedding isle along the beach/the barn? =D




:: regards ::



RAe




PS: Time to do more reading!

The Age

This song covered by James is currently very popular.
No doubt its nice with his version.
But I still prefer the version above.


The same lyrics, same rhythm..
Different age
Different time zone
Different scenarios and different surrounding matters


Do you still remember what have you done 5 years ago, this day, this time?
That was 2009.
The flashy-back.



Time really flies.
I am totally another different person compared to the "me" 5 years ago.


Are you happy with the change?
Are you elated?
Are you satisfied?



There's so much of me that have grown.
Be it internally or externally.
I do pamper much on my own.
I don't even wear what I used to like/buy.
The obvious change? We're all using a smart phone now. =)

Should I get this? 

Damn. I was looking at Sony A7 then somebody else tempted me with this.

With the "special" pricing. 

Damn. It's really tempting. 

I'm effin tempted deep within me!!! 

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The people that used to be so close with you whereby you have lots of common topics with, no longer the one you'll think of or you wish to share the information with. 

Do you feel/experience the same thing?

It's very sad in one sense but.. 

Why force to discuss on the uncommon topics? 

In some way, we have to learn to forgo what we used to have. 

Do things that make you happy. 

Relationship? It takes two very passionate people to try hard to be together even though that times are bad or that there are many obstacles along the way. 

Same goes to friendship isn't it? 

You can't clap with a hand. 

Time to forgo what you used to have and welcome what is coming ahead. 

Oh ya! I'm officially at work for 1 year! 

Happy 1st year anniversary of work Rachel Ngiam! =D 

With what you are doing now, can you imagine yourself doing the same damn thing for another 10 years? 20 years? or shall I say, 30 years, the age whereby you retire? 

Hmmm. Should you be doing something different to make sure that you do not repeat the same single thing for 30 years? 

You choose your own life. 

Be responsible for that. 

Time to get back to work! *Yawn*

Toodles! 

:: regards ::

RAe

PS: Half more year to end of the year. Care to try something different?  :)

曾经

The Woman

The song of the "soul"..


Spoken with a very heartiest friend of mine.
She said:" Every relationship would be fine without any financial issues".


She is married for a second time, with child.
It was very unfortunate of her that her first marriage didn't turn out well.
A very tough lady I would say.
Despite the fact that the first marriage didn't end up well, or shall I say that didn't work out, she took up the courage to accept and believe in marriage once again.


It's not easy for a woman to be able to raise a children on her own with the economy nowadays.
It's definitely difficult.
What's even worse?
The husband is in debt.
The kind of condition whereby they have literally "blocked" the view in front of you.


The first question that I asked her was whether she knew about that when she married him.
The usual kind of lies that men tell.
She didn't knew about that.
Being practical and rational, she wouldn't have married him if she knew that.
Come on, the world is fair and realistic.


It's the woman's whole life that she is giving if she marries.
Why on earth does guys have to lie about anything?


We are nothing but humans.
Sole human.
I felt touched immediately when she said that she is married to him, no choice but to grow the family together. To go through the hard times hand and hand to overcome everything.


Hopefully that the guy will appreciate and eventually lead a happy living in the future.
What if..
What if the guy decided to give up someday?

Oh gosh I couldn't imagine that from happening.
Shouldn't have married at the beginning.



Woman... woman..
I know I sound very negative about marriage.
It's the kind of insecure you get about living together with another person.
Insecure can exists in many different forms.
The most common ones? Financial issues.
C'est La Vie.


There was one fact that I agreed with my friend.
With your egoism, you are not going anywhere.
It's your family.
What is family for if you are not able to share your deepest of thoughts/conditions with them?


True enough.
I don't understand what is there to hide from your OWN family members.
It's your mum and dad.
You think that you are very ashamed when your family knows that you are in some kind of problems?


Some people "self-claimed" to be family oriented but they can't even let them know the real situation of themselves.
I can't brain about that.
Hello? Are you sane? Uuugghhh.




Honesty saves a lot of shits.
But it kills a lot of shits as well.




Fact of life? I will never lie to my mum.
I'm good means good.
Bad means never good.
You are not going anywhere good if you can't even be honest to them.
Shameful is the only word that I can think of.
Ma I wanna live together with you for the rest of my life.
The one that will never keep anything from me.
I only want someone that never hide anything from me. That's the definition of family.
Try Google if you don't get the true meaning of it.



Get a life seriously.





:: regards ::




RAe




PS: Can LOVE and ONLY LOVE itself conquers everything?

The Wall

Many things that happened recently got me into thinking.
Am I someone who will get married?


I definitely do not want to be like a friend of mine.
The only thing that is left in her mind is only the boyfriend, fiance, husband and my closest of family.

I do not know about her.
Besides the closest of family, I still have family.

Friends that are as close as your family.
The people which are irreplaceable.
It made me thought of who I used to be.
Who I was.
I would even not be close to my own mum because of that boyfriend.


As for now, if you ask me about getting married, it really got me thinking.
Am I someone supposed to get married?



I feel like I wanna stick with my mum for the rest of my life.


Am I suitable to get married in that sense? How about my boyfriend's parents?
What about them?


It's really a dilemma that I'm having within.



Well, besides the thinking part, I'm so busy with life.


Life is pretty much contented for me.


Paid short vacation to Mactan Island. Hmmm. ObamaNotBad.
Self-paid vacation to Tawau and Mataking, hmmm! Goood! ;)



Has been spoken to colleagues that are going for vacation with their girlfriends.
Usual conversation that will come up are, paying for their girlfriends.


Great! Awesome! I told them as usual, find me a boyfriend that will sponsor my everything!


And then... Here it goes... The same ol'stories... yada yaddaa yaadaaa...




******



Time flies so effing fast and we're already a quarter of bidding goodbye to April 2014.

Achievement so far?

Yeah! At least I have been to overseas, another chop on my passport =)


The dream of leaving my footprints on 10 countries by the age of 25.

Would it be possible? Hmmm...!
Com'on boss, send me to oversea for training!!!



Life's....? Couldn't be more awesome.

Fully occupied with things around me.
I rarely have the time to slack and mingle at home! Imagine that!
Hmmm!



There were so many inspirations that were running through my head but when it comes to this platform, HOLA! Everything that was planned and arranged disappear.



The power of my pea brain.


Yeah.



Till then, I bid you good night =)



:: regards ::



RAe



PS: In need of slumber...!

The Comma's

 Looking back at life, *peek*, many things happened.


There are both good and bad stuffs, depending on how you see it.

There is something really worth celebrating this year.
We are finally going for vacation as WHOLE.
My whole family.
Aawwww... Lovely! The last time we were on vacations together was back in 2007.


That was, Hong Kong!
I remember pretty well that I used to love that place, practically only because of the Disneyland.
Well, things change, and people change.


This year, it would be Universal Studio instead of Disneyland.
It would be Winter!

Aaahhh!! Just the thought of it makes me thrill!
Thankfully, I'm no longer in the headache of searching on the places of interest for Part A.
For now, its just about waiting for the right time to come by and continue on for Part B.
=D



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About work wise... Well, it's getting more and more pain in the arse for me.
Working is never an easy thing.
Besides, who likes working?

I do think that I could get used to not working, staying at home and laze for the whole day, or so you say, life? Heheheh.



After getting "gaji buta" for more than half a year, I do think that it's practically time for me to buck up and do something right.
No more snaking so much I hope.
I know that there's a part of me that knows what I wanted to do in the deep heart core.


But wait, what would that be?
How do I even know what do I really want/love doing?

I'm stuck in between the public relation industry and the... "office-like" kind of style?
I could use some help over here you know.
I'm thinking of joining another competition, but another part of me, I don't really want it.


How to live a living with my thinking being so extreme? =\


Back to my work now. I do wish/hope that I could close a deal on my own.
I do really wish to prove that I could actually excel in what I am doing now.
Would it be alright if I take a little too much time than others? =((


I could use some ranting you know.
I can't wait for the arrival of April.
I'll be away from Malaysia for 2 weeks. Eh no.
To be exact, I'll be away from home for 2 weeks.
The first week, hopefully it won't be stressful, second week, it would be leisure..


Aahhh... Splendid.. I could use a vacation!! =D



Toodles people! This week being outstation is hectic.
Curse the tenders. I hate you.
I hate being outstation with somebody else.
It kills me for the fact that I'm in the land of food paradise and yet, I am kinda not allowed to enjoy them.
Thanks to some "guts" that some "people" are having.


For sure, I will come here on my own one day.
And when that day comes..... OOHHMMMM NNOOOMMM NOOOMMM!
Who cares if I runs out of shape? =P




Till then, I bid you farewell!

Tata!



:: regards ::




RAe




PS: I miss you..

The Youth

The first time I heard this song, OHMAIGOD why is it so saddening?

For me, its a flat, so its saddening. But somehow, the lyrics make perfect sense.
I've seen the world, done it all...
That's what I want for now, I have yet to see the world and yet to do it all.


But wait, define "world" and "all".
How do you measure that?


The ruler in each individual is different, I don't even know how wide/narrow is mine.
But when is the right time for you to judge if you have seen it all?
At least, not now, not at the moment, not 2014. Herh! =P



Life? It's procrastination, it's lazyness, it's demotivating.

I feel like I'm nothing but dead walking, no hope, no directions in life. It's devastating. =(



Changes - The power of changes...!
The environment that changes people.
If you are someone who's an introvert, would you apply for a job that needs an extrovert's properties?
If you say that you're who are you, you are what you are built up of, and you expect things to grow/flow according to your way, and you want people to accept you for who you are, does it make sense?


If the qualities that you are having are not positive, you know that they are not right, would you still let it be and wish that people would accept you for who you are?


Yes, if someone loves you, he/she will accept you for who you are and what you are made up of.
Still, it would highly be appreciated if you are willing to change for the good, and to make people who loves you happy.
It is definitely lovely that you are accepted the way you are, but it will be tiring if indulgence is being a little too much.
If you could change yourself for the good, and to be upgraded in life, are you willing to take up the changes?
Would you claim that you are losing your originality instead of trying to be a better person?



I am a quiet person, I would say that I am an introvert, I don't like being extrovert actually.
Do I look as if I am someone like that to you?
I know I am known to be someone cheerful, noisy, happy-go-lucky.
But deep within me, I enjoy silence pretty much...
In fact, I enjoy doing things alone once in a while...
Traveling alone perhaps?
I actually enjoy spending time or you would say "wasting" time by the beach, waiting for the sunrise/sunset..
Probably do some reading... Enjoying life...
How pleasant would that be? =)



Someone once told me that she would like to have 10 properties by the time she retires..
That's her dream.
Every person has different dreams.
For me, I don't need to be loaded, I only wish to laze around...
HAHAHAH! You might want to consider me being someone without dreams.
But that's my dream!
I do not hope to have a lot of money, I dream to have one house in every countries if I do have the extra money.
One in every states in Australia, Japan, Korea, and UK perhaps? HAHAHAH!
But if I don't, I would want to have a house of my own, and then keep traveling around at least twice a year.. Teehee! =D




But, I am so lazy to change what is wrong within me now.
Slap me please will ya? =O





:: regards ::




RAe




PS: 浩瀚的世界裡更迭的人海裡和你互相輝映

The Hay

污点始终是污点...

The Last Time

The Last Time.
Last time for?
The last time for me to stay broke for the month.


HAHAHAHAHA.


Chinese New Year is around the corner and yet I'm so broke for everything.
How to survive lah during CNY?!
Dang!


But Thankfully, I have bought few pieces, still, I would like to have one CheongSam.

Gish. But I have no time to hunt for that.
INEEDTOGOFORGYMVERYFREQUENTLYTHESEFEWDAYS.
Because I have photoshoot during the weekend and they requested me to lose some weight.


Oh gawd man I am so pitiful! ='((




I was reading something online and I accidentally found another paradise.

Koh Phangan, Thailand.

I am so wanna getaway to so many places around the world. 

Still, Kah-Ching is the issue and also annual leaves.

I have limited amount of annual leaves!!! =(

Actually, I have normal amount of annual leaves but it is just that, they are already well located for my upcoming vacation plans. 

Teehee! =D

Feel like getting married? 

This is the thrill. =)

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Maldives would be the next destination before marriage!
Because I don't wanna go there for honeymoon or the proposal or whatsoever.


Wait a minute!

I will get married meh?!
LOL!



No thrill/heartbeat for that at the moment! =D
Even.... for the next 3-4 years! Yeehaw!




I only wanna work, have fun, travel, earn more kah-ching, eat, and everything else not related to commitments and more commitments! =)





Yay!




Have a pleasant weekend ahead. Longer weekend. But too bad Mr. E is gonna be so occupied for the weekend. ME? I'm gonna shake legs at home!





:: regards ::




RAeeeeyyy

The Motherhood

Everything has been going on well between me and my family and with Mr. E.
But there is now one particular stuff that I'm afraid of the most.

All these wouldn't have happened if we only have to deal amongst us, the couple.
But sadly, marriage is never about two persons loving much about one another and getting married.
It is basically about 2 persons who want to get married with the whole family that they are having. FML.


I have always wanted to give my mum the very best that I have. Just so you know, she's the only person that loves me so much when everybody else hates me.
Well. It might not be only her.
I still have the rest of the families.
The dad.
The Bro.
The other mums.
I have always tried to work things out so that there could be a fair balance between the mum and Mr. E. But this time around, whereby I understand the positive intentions that Mr. E is having. But I dont really understand why is the mum making such a big fuss over these kind of little things.


Perhaps, the tradition matters.
The CNY matters.
Perhaps.
But, I don't really understand.
Is there a need to be that firm over such little things?


Damn. Seriously, there is a need to have a common ground between me and Mr. E. Else, we would be suffering from a lot more of pressures. Stress. Tension. And everything bad. So bad I could be suffocated to death.


I wish. I wish to be far away from all these nonsense that could have been avoided. There must be a balance between all these.


Communication is what that matters the most.
But sometimes our egoism is so strong that we take things for granted thinking that our another half SHOULD/MUST/WILL do it according to our wish.
The most important rule to having a trouble free relationship, from having all the frictions, communication and never make assumptions.


We are in a relationship. But we are not each other. We should always be educated of what is going on in our head to clear off the obstacles ahead us.
It is never ashamed to let each others know about your feeling about some particular things.
That's where the value of true relationship comes from.
The respect. The individual. The love...



No matter what that happens, your own mum is irreplaceable.
Be it your mum.
My mum.
His mum.
Her mum.
It's our own mums.




I truly wish that all these unhappy choices/moments would leave together with the lunar 2013.
Embracing a brighter better and happier lunar 2014 that is coming ahead of us.



Best regards,



Raaaeeeyy

The Hay

Many things have been going on in my head recently..
The Good, The Bad, The Neutral, and Everything Else.


Something serious has been longing in my head for quite some time.
I was thinking, will I be ready to stop fighting when I am allowed to?


If I could afford to live a wonderful luxurious life without having to work, would I still work?
What would I do then?


This is a serious question okay!
I am not joking or dreaming, I know for sure, that this particular day would come.
Someday, somehow, but not now =)


So, I have got myself some answers.
I would definitely stop working.
And...
Shop with my family.
Eat with my family.
Take up some classes, be it languages or music instruments.
Continue with stitching so that my loved ones would feel the warmth =)
Most importantly, I would like to take up some designing classes, I would like to pursue in interior designing and then... creating some small unique stuffs.
So cute that I can't live without it =D


I could foresee myself being so busy and occupied okay! Teehee!!





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Just when I am feeling I have gain some fighting spirit to "pia" in work.
Here comes the CNY!
Yoodddoooo!! A pail of cold water being poured!


Everytime I enter UPM, I feel... special.
Just so you know, Mr. E studies there.
I have always imagined that I could attend his big day in that particular place.
I am always amazed with the area of the Uni, after UM.
But now, I am no longer mesmerized with UM.
I am like, I will be there averagely one day weekly okay!


The hallucination of cheering in UPM would not be coming true.
No worries Mr. E, it's alright. Cheers okay! =D




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Speaking of which, it is already the New Year!
So how was your achievement in 2013?
New year resolution?
Well, you need to have some resolutions each year that you are keen to achieve in.
Your hard work, your effort? Will be seen even though you have not speak/yell about it.
Mine?


1. Secret
2. Secret
3. Secret
4. Travel to another Country for the year! *How lucky that Mr. E got to visit 2 different countries last year, UK and Australia. Damn!*
5. I want to get myself a memorable present on my Birthday! Because I didn't get myself one precious one in 2013.



Yay! Cheers for CNY!
Cheers for holidays! =D


Wish everyone in the pink of health and everything nice and smooth throughout the year of the horsey!
Good luck!





:: regards::



RAe



PS: Katy Perry - In another life, I would be your girl