The Dream

Hello there! I'm now officially an adult.
The 23rd. The age whereby I have graduated from uni.
The age I start working, officially.
Its already the second month of work.
All I can say is, Time Flies.


Looking back at the first month I was working, I was still job-street-ing to search for a job that I would like.
Cause I was seriously having the thought that this job is not for me.
This is not what I want.
I was only trying to pass time in the office and get myself fed at the same time.
What a selfish-foolish thought.
It's another 4 more months upon the confirmation of my position now.
This job, is it within my ability of handling stuffs?
I'm trying.
Really trying hard.


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I had a meaningful birthday for remembrance this year.
As what Mr. E said, it was my first birthday celebration together with him.
He wanted to make it profound.
I was so tired and sleepy on the 27th and I went to bed around 10 ish I think.
He was already so tired but still he put alarm to wake up and wish me.
It was very thoughtful and I really appreciate it much, but I was really really tired and I practically slept-walking. =.="
Yes he was very sweet and no, he did not really planned everything to give me surprise and all.
He said before he's not good at surprise.
It's okay =)


Sadly, things didn't have a complete beautiful full stop.
Some incident happened. Mr. E left his precious necklace in the hotel.
I was not very concern at first until then I was told that it was given by his mom.
The first thing that came into my mind was that, Oh shyt. I'm being imprecated.
For that everyone knows that his parents dislike me and then what now?
I made him lost his stuff that was given by his mom.
For God knows how much I was to cry and that we are like not meant to be together?
I felt so bad.
So bad that I couldn't really brain at all.


God knows how bad I am at talking. And yet, shyt happens. =(
IT was my day and it was SUPPOSED to end with a great smile!
Yeah, I am very good at asking why. I like to think WHY and then I put myself into a bad mood.
Typically Leo's. =.="
How was I supposed to feel/think Okay? =|


Fyi, things ended badly that night even though I was very glad that I manage to bring my family to Sumi-Ka for an awesomely pricey dinner. Damage badly in the pocket.
The bill came up to RM 400.
Ahhh well, expected..


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Things are not so smooth between me and Mr. E recently.
Or shall I say, things are never smooth between us both.
Ever since the beginning.
Why?
Can I just disappear from all these?
Can I just escape?

Yes I wanted to rant so badly that I don't know how.
It's very sad to see my family being bothered by my problems.
I do not want to talk about all the stuffs I have disagreements with Mr. E.
But they like to ask and they wanted to know and then I get frustrated that I just want to hide in my own room not seeing anyone.
I feel bad. So bad that I wanted to whack myself so badly.
I'm such a bad person that I bothered the people who loves me so well.
How could I?


I swear to God that if the relationship doesn't work out this time around, I never want to get into another relationship anymore.
I call DellynnLim the Kuen almost everytime I have arguments with Mr. E.
She told me that she's now very afraid to see me calling her already.
Cause it means that I will mostly crying over the phone but the fact that she can't be here with me.
Rachel Ngiam. Feel guilty shall you!


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Did I get polluted so badly that my thinking about "love" isn't that lovely anymore?
The thought of being selfless.
The thought of being caring.
The thought of being thoughtful.
The thought of being sweet.
The thought of being concerned about the relationship.
Selfless...
Where?


I.am.CUCKOO-ED!!!
I.really.need.to.rant.
I.need.to.be.sanitized.
Iambeingsuffocated. Ineedfreshness.
God of purity, please do come to me..



I need to quit blogging. Kthxbye!





Sunflower kisses - please come back to me! Desperately need you! =|



:: regards ::




Rae



Ps: I want the dream, the childhood, the fairytale kind of dream to come back to me!

The Leo Month!

Hello peeps!


It's the 25th of July and its Thursday!
Last day of work for the week! Just how amazing is that? =DD


I'm so thrilled.
I'm starting to get closer with people at work.
Hmmm. I think I'll stay here till the next opportunity comes by.
I don't really wanna find for new jobs.
I just feel like staying put over here for another couple of months! =D


I don't really know what I want actually.
So... YEAH!



25th July - Happy birthday MR. Tan Balan.
Forever the dude. Thank you very much for being with me all the time ever since in high school. =)



Hmmmm. Let's see what's for the weekend?
Tonight - Buka Puasa Dinner with colleagues in Subang.
Tomorrow morning to Sunday - Cameron Highland! How happy!! =D
Sunday night - Yours Truly Birthday Celebration in Sumi-Ka with family! =DD


Hoola! I'm totally occupied for the weekend!
I definitely love to be occupied! =*


Oh ya! I received a super surpise kind of surprise from a lovely girl last night!
It's a very cute tube-dress, well it's not really a dress thou. Hmmm.
I went home and get into my room and I saw a pressie lying there on my bed!

How lovely! =D


And of course, I thank Er Jie for celebrating my birthday with me 2 days ago in TGIF!
I will never forget her "innocent" look acting not knowing anything, about the staffs there bringing me a birthday cake!
NEVER EVER!
I'LL NEVER FORGET!




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Basically, not much updates about my days these days.
Erm, I'm now trying to do some quotations.
It's a pain in the arse.
Seriously.
You're gonna see me wearing an inch thick of glasses soon I guess.
So korlian.


Talking about in-laws the other days.
Pain in the arse.


No doubt that we as girlfriends would definitely try so effin hard to portrait the best that we could.
Is it our problems or do the elderly's just want even more from us?
It seems to be like we never do enough.
We could have done better.
Really? Seriously?



Well, no worries for me.
I haven't met the parents yet. I think it'll be better if that moment comes later... like how much later?
Let's see how much further can things be dragged then. =P



One thing to be sad about is that, the parents don't really like me I think.
That's why things have been delayed. Or is it that Mr. E doesn't want me to meet the parents that's why? =O
Well, it doesn't matter thou =P



The parents like you, give you this that, you'll have problem.
The parents don't like you, it's a problem also.
HOW?!
=.="




Ignore that while I'm still able to! Teehee!!! =P




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July is a Good Good month! As usual!
I love my birthday month!


Thank you Lord for sending me so many beautiful people.
A year older = A year wiser.
I am thankful for all that I am having now.
Xie xie! =D




Have a great weekend ahead people! Lots of Love! =*






:: regards ::




Rae






Ps: I miss Cameron Highland! =)

22/07/2013

Today marks the birthday of a Secondary School friend =)


Dear TeeChinLong,

Happy birthday.
Despite the fact that you're kinda ill, but your spirit is still strong.
So strong that I would have to learn more from you.
And I salute your ability, both physically and mentally.
Kudos my friend! =)




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Well, I had a pretty relaxing weekend.
How about you?


Being able to settle all the pending stuffs make me thrill =D
Again, I enjoyed my Sunday morning working with beautiful people.
A lot more for me to learn and absorb.
Life? Couldn't be better. I'm surrounded by beautiful people who loves me so much.
I'm truly blessed.



Hmmm. I made Mr. E act cute and then I video recorded.
He is so cute I'm gonna die!! *AgnesSpirits*


I remember very well what he said to me.
Mr. E said Agnes came into his dream and taught him banana-fied him to be so cute!
Aaaawwww...!!

I really love this picture. 

How lovely. 

My colleague in the Pharmacy complimented Mr. E. 

Sangat handsome.

Hidung condong.

Aiyoh! Mr. E literally went flying that he forgot to zip up his pants!!! HAHAHAHAH

I'm so banana-fied!! 

Can't wait for Cameron Highland trip this weekend. 

Will I get nostalgic? 

Let's see...

What I think?

It'll be no. Those memories are meant to be only memories. 

No doubt that I couldn't really get over the ex previously. 

But for now, I practically take him invisible. I erased this person from my life already. 

Those will be memories. And only memories =) 

His girlfriend so funny that I don't know how should I react to her funny moves. 

What do you expect? 

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There must be a reason why I didn't make it to Top40 in MUMO.

For good or bad, there must be a reason!

There must be a reason why I left that "section" "empty".

God has a better plan for me perhaps? =)

Have a great week ahead! I'm so thrilled!! =D

:: regards ::

RAe

PS: My birthday trip this weekend! Thank you for everything Mr. E =D 

The Down Side

Hoola!!
An hour to go! I smell liberty!!

What is the use of working when the only thing that you look forward about work is FRIDAY!!!

Things have been kinda busy with work.
I'm slowly being suffocated! =\


Trying hard to adapt to a complete different kind of culture...
I doubt if this would be the path of life that I want...


Well, this ain't the first time things become doubtful for me..


The rough seas will be calm eventually.
Just be patient enough. That's it =)

Hmmm. About the Audition for MUMO last weekend.
The results for Top40 is out.
Yes. I didn't make it to the Top40.
It's kinda disappointing actually.
I couldn't really find out what went wrong with me..
The only kind of comfort I could get is, "not everything is fair".


The traumatizing moment and stuff, they will always be remembered.
I was confident that I  could make it to the Top40 actually.
I was pretty satisfied with my performance that day.
In fact, maybe I was overconfident then.


C'est La Vie.


TGIF!!!
Movie night again!
Mr. E, I heart you! I heart you "this much"!! *stretch widely!*





Let's see.... What's for the weekend?
Hmmm....
There's nothing in my head!
Let's see what will be coming up then!



Have a great weekend ahead!!








:: regards ::




Rae




Ps: First time doing "claim"! Hoola! I'm excited to see the amount!! =PP

Silence

I just need a moment of "alone" time and "silence" when I'm unhappy.

Can I just have that?


5-10 minutes will be enough to do the drill.

Thankyouverymuch.



:: regards ::



RAe



PS: JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

MUMO

There will be tonnes and tonnes of jerks around.
Whether you love it or not, they'll always be around, like "sticky-spirits".
So annoying that you would just like to give them a big slap and say...


GET A LIFE!!!

Well, you can't control them.
Jerks exist! =)


I had an awesome weekend!
Indeed, I spent my weekend wisely! I feel so "aaawww...!!"


Friday night with Mr. E as usual =D
Dropped by BubbaGump just for The Chocolate Thing, but we had Shrimper's Heaven as well.
Mr. E's favourite.
I regretted so much for letting him order the heaven.
Damn! I couldn't have popcorn during movie! =(
And yeah, we watched Despicable Me 2 like so finally.

Mr. E has been banana-fied me ever since I showed him Despicable Me.
"It's so fluffy I'm gonna die!!!"
Awwww...! =D

Seriously, Thank You CitiBank for the Buy1Free1 promo for every Friday.
We're now officially movie hunter every Friday night.
Our movie date! Love it! Teehee!! =D


Remember that I said that the colleagues were gonna have a dinner on Friday night?
And yeah, they saw me eating in BubbaGump! KANTOI!

As usual, they said that I'm lucky to have such a cute Mr. E!
Hello. It's him who is so lucky to have me okay. =O






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Saturday = The So Called Big Day!
Went out for brekkie with Mr. Low. Super long time no see.
He bought me a Starbucks Tumbler from ShenZhen!
Yeah. Because DavidYong couldn't get me one last year.
And even my mum couldn't get me one last year.
So now, I have ShenZhen Starbucks Tumbler! Yay!



It was indeed a super short meet-up with him.
I needed to get prepared of course.
Oh ya! I pampered myself so badly this year and I'm so broke! =(
I am currently a super fan of Laneige!
Is it possible for Laneige to give me their series of products FOC cause I really love them so much.
Have been using them for half a year! Fawesome!

I have 2 different series with me now. 

Thanks to those who went Korea. 

They helped me to buy thats why I could afford to have 2 different series.

Difference by almost 40% okay! =P

Besides SkinCare, I pampered myself with cosmetics too.
I spent so much that I could literally die! =|
To be honest, M.A.C isn't that expensive afterall.
Seriously, their products are really good! Just that the brushes are real costy!
Way too expensive!



I am so dumb with make-up that I spent too much time making up in the morning!
Almost late for the audition!
Okay I lied. I was early for the audition =)
Hmmm. Everything went on well..


What I feel after attending the event?
Seriously! Girls can be so powerful and loving for each others!
I'm truly inspired by those women!
So caliber and yet so lovely! How awesome is that? =)

During the Q&A session, the question for me was: Who is the sexiest man alive?
My answer: The sexiest man alive would be Mr. Edwin Shiaw Chin Han, the boyfriend.
Then the crowd went "Aaaawwww..."


Aaawwww... My eyes were practically teary hearing that okay! I almost want to cry!

Then yadayada...




Sorry peeps. I lied. My answers were, My dad. The awesome dad.
Thats why the crowd went aaawww...



Sorry Mr. E, I lied to you.
But, too be honest, you too are a sexy man alive.
Your approaches, your efforts to make me yours and your hardworks definitely make you sexy. =)



So yeah! There goes the Top 100 Audition.
Top 40 will be produced by this weekend.
Whether I make it to the Top 40 or not, it doesn't matter.
Still, I am thankful for that I was given the opportunity to "shiver all the way from the beginning I step on stage to the end till I come down from stage". =.="
I thank everyone for the full support. Even from those who are more than thousands miles away from me!
Most importantly, Thank you mummy and Mr. E.


Mr. E, thank you for accompanying me the whole day.
With you being with me that day, Mummy was very relieved.
You're now playing a superman role in my mum for me. Kudos! Xie xie ni!




Sadly, the night didn't had a full stop beautifully.
All thanks to patience and naughtiness to fool/jokes around.
=|





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Sunday!

Man! I resumed back to work in LifeCare!!
For a fortnight but only during the Sunday!


Pretty fruitful! =D


Of course, everything ended well with a yummy dinner in Sepadu with Jim and the family.
Clement so cute!
Keeps sharing with me about liking this and that, girls, boys, games!
LOL!

5th Graders! So lovely! =D




Monday Blue?
No! I slept till 9am! How awesome! =D


Abit downturns these days/for the month.
But no worries. The rough seas will eventually be calm one day!
Cheers! =)





Have a great week ahead peeps!




:: regards ::




Rae






PS: Mr. E. Thank you for giving me all the hours when you have the chance. Thank you for holding my hands =)

PSS: Thank you in advance for the upcoming birthday celebration! =D Cant wait for SUMIKA with everyone! Gonna be broke! =|

Regrets

On the 11th of July 2013,


YES!!! It's Thursday! Approximately 20 hours to liberty!!! =D
There will be a dinner with the rest of the colleagues tomorrow night.
Question is: Should I participate?
I want and don't want at the same time.
So, I should just split myself up kthxbye!


Hmm, I didn't blog for a couple of days.
Plainly, I was busy.
I slack outside instead of staying in the office.
You'll only get to see my post when I have nothing to do and forced to stay in the office.



Youngsters these days, I always hear that they are broke.
So broke. I wonder why... What is their commitments actually?
Why so korlian?
Me too, being so broke that I could literally die. =|

Because of these, I make sure that I always ask.
You might not know that your wish might just come true! =)



Over the last weekend, I was nervous that I thought I saw my ex.
Mr. E claimed it as a blush that I still have feeling over him.
In fact, no.
Now I know why I felt so afraid.
Traumatized.
The incident was so ordeal that I am so reluctant to see that face again.
So horrible.
So devastating.
In short, he is everything atrocious, full stop.



To be honest, I thank God for sending me so many precious people to grow together with me.
I must have done something so virtuous to deserve having them with me.
Never take things for granted and always be grateful! =)

Seize your day peeps! You do not want to come up with days thinking "What If"..
You might just might it happen!




:: regards ::



RAe



Ps: Life? Couldn't be better!

Weekend Mania

Hello Bluish Monday!

Here I am doing what I do best in the office.
Sigh.



Today is rather boring.
I got bored that I started reading dictionary just now. =|

Super lifeless. Something bring me back alive please.


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I received another email from MUMO.
It's coming so soon and it sounds to be like so "big" that it literally takes my breath away!!!
HOW?
Should I attend? No doubt that I wanted to try, I wanted to know the outcome.
But, just the thought of facing the crowd and there is possibility that you might get yourself embarrassed, it scares the hell out of me and I might just pee on the spot. =((
HOW?!?!?!


I had a beauty weekend by the way.
What about you?
Seriously, I enjoy lazying around doing nothing.
But there are always things waiting to be accomplished and human, especially someone with my kind of gene/something, I love procrastinating.
My nature. =.="


Well, Thank God that I can still afford to do what I do best - Procrastinate.
I have nothing major or important coming ahead, so yeah, I slack. =)


I have no fate with Taiwan FOREVER I think.
Just when I thought that Oh Yes! I can finally go there end of the year!
Ddduuuhhh! Something came up and its driving my nerves crazy!
By right I can just, close my eyes and then, Ok lar. Let's go.
But, I can't. I just can't. I need to be both financially and emotionally ready!
I think I can just run to any rural area and then start farming. Feeling MEH~

:: regards ::



RAe




Ps: It's all about your reputation. Earn it or lose it!


Pps: Thank you God for all the things that you've done. But, when can I stop going to the hospital?

TGIF =D

Awesome song that I heard during my walking in Melby.
Unique voice indeed =)


Hola it's Friday!
TGIF? =D


Yesterday was rather a tiring day.
I went to MPOB and indeed, I learnt about something new again.
How awesome.

Didn't get to have lunch with Bestie, cause we didn't make appointment with each other earlier.
Same goes to the previous time when I called her.
Sigh. No fate... =((

Yesterday was super meaningful to me.
Besides having the chance to learn about new stuffs and got to meet new people,
best of all, I met up with ErJie for dinner and yamcha session.


As usual, we talked about basically everything.
I always enjoy talking to her.
Joke ON her.
Then she got frust and annoyed a bit sometimes and asked if she owed me money or something.
One thing I like about her is that, I can just say anything that I want.
Without being very cautious and mindful.
This is one thing that Mr. E doesn't like about me. =(
It's a bad habit I know.
I joke a little out of the way sometimes...



Sexology.



I got to know about something tremendous yesterday.
Which is about Dr. George Lee the Urologist.
I got to know about this particular Doc because of my ex actually.
He used to talk about private parts and some sex lives over the radio, BFM 89.90.
I listened to some of the sharing sessions of his once in a while.

Pretty interesting facts and stories were being shared actually.
But I wasn't too inspired with them cause I seriously dislike about all these topics.
Well, Mr. E did changed my perceptions towards all these studies.
He actually did raised my interest and curiosity especially towards our special organs.
One particular statement he said that I remember the most.
"You have to understand your parts completely, this is not about horny or something bad. It's your body parts."



Hmmm.
If you do know me well enough, I specifically hate about reproduction and stuffs like that.
Seriously!?!?!
Do I need to know all that?! Gosh.

Then I started to do some reading and stuffs.
And... I'm glad to say that now I do understand myself a little bit more. =)
Heheehh.
Its not to late I would say. =D





Les Miserables.




Mr. E can't make it to the event with me on 13th July.
How sad is that.
It was rather a disappointment instead of mad actually.
I booked him for like, almost a month ago then suddenly, a random appointment could just take him away.
I seem to be very unimportant don't I?
Well, I understand the situation.
Yes I do.
Thats why I told him I would attend it on my own.
For the sake of Ning, I forgive you Mr. E.


Oh ya!
I almost forgot.
I had an awesome dinner with my 2 hengdais on Wednesday.
It was pretty happy meeting up with them.
Glad that Mr. E joined us but sad in another sense.
After that night they have been WhatsApp-ing me, "Weih, ask your win win come out lar".

Walao weih.
Hello, you two gay ah?
His name is Edwin for your information, that's why they called him win win.
*smack head*



Friday night = movie night!
Definitely gonna watch the movie starring by Sammi Cheng and Andy Lau.
Excited!
TGV, please be good to me.
I want to get movie tickets later.
I want awesome seats ok? =D




Awesome weekend coming ahead.
Enjoy them to the fullest kay! =)



:: regards ::



RAe

KIA Cerato Official Launch Day!

Basically, what I am about to post has zero interactions with my post title.

1/7/2013

Marks the laziest day of work for me.
I went to LGM in the morning, departed at around 9am from my house.
Sent in what I was supposed to send, then I headed off to KLCC for a walk.
Then, I went to Shangri-La Hotel to do what I was supposed to.

Hoola! I've completed my task!
Practically that sum up my day at work.
I reached home at about 1.30pm.
How happy...

Even Mr. E claimed that I don't look as if I've started working. How amazing!

Today. Another boring day in the office. =(

Now, this is the difference! 

<3

:: regards ::


RAe